sandygirl - your reaction was completely normal and exactly how I would feel in the same situation. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss and your pain. It's such a difficult journey. It took us 2 years and 2 m/c before we conceived a successful pg. Please believe that it will happen for you because I do. Some days will feel worse than others but you will gradually have more of the better days. I found the worst were anniversary type dates & special occasions such as birthdays, Mothers Day etc.

Sending you a million hugs and the very best wishes. Please please keep believing that you can do it tho, I know it's soooo hard sometimes but please do it. I actually became addicted to the Delta Goodrem song 'Believe Again' after my second m/c because I felt the same way you did, I'd lost faith/belief that I could do it but I knew I just had to keep on going & believing that it would happen. That song gave me hope & inspiration. It's weird that a song got me through it but it did, I hope you find strength to believe and keep on going because it is worth it.