Hi all
I have just experienced my 5th miscarriage over the past 3 years. No babies for me. I have had lots of tests through the recurrent miscarriage clinic and a private OB. Nothing wrong they say. Everything is "normal" I am now 43 and feel lost. Tried Chinese medicine, supportive yoga, eating meat(am usually vegetarian). Not only when pregnant but in the months leading up to ttc to make sure the egg quality can be best. I concieve easily. It just doesn't seem to match up with the outcomes. This last pregnancy went the furtherest, a day short of 9 weeks. I had u/s at 7 1/2 weeks as i was worried. There was baby the right size and stage and a very strong heart beat. Progesterone levels monitored and very good. I read that a strong heart beat at this stage raises the chances of a healthy pregnancy to 80 - 90% even with my history of miscarriage and age. I was sooooooo happy for the next 10 days until the follow-up scan revealed the baby of perfect size and development for 8weeks 5 days but there was no heartbeat and no movement. It seemed my baby had died that very same day....
I have been devastated. The pregnancy had felt so calm and promising. Now i don't know what to think, feel or do. And my partner is reluctant to try again.

Any one else out there who never got the baby they wanted to have? Any thoughts beyond "at least you can get pregnant", "be happy now", "well at your age" "what about other ways" "accept it"