It is very scary. I was extremely scared to ttc after two m/c in a row but I knew I wanted a baby so there was only one thing to do and that was to take the plunge. Luckily it was third time lucky for us and our baby boy is now 4 weeks old. The first 12 weeks were so scary but when I held Sam in my arms for the first time it made it all worthwhile. Sometimes we have to do things that scare us, like rollercoasters, they scare the daylights out of us but we go on them over and over again because we want that feeling that you get when the ride ends. Your ttc ride might be bumpy like a rollercoaster but be confident that it will have an exciting end... best wishes and please keep believing.