Hello ladies,

Sorry I have been MIA for a few days, just trying to get myself together. I really dont have much emotion for what happened....again, so I have been doing ok. I never really thought it would turn out to be ok anyway, and never really imagined myself carrying this one or even acknowledged that I was pg. However, in saying that, I cant ignore the fact that this was my 3rd m/c of sorts and so I need to look into having some tests done. I have booked an appointment with my ob/gyn for the 24th July....earliest I could get in Im afraid, hes a very busy man! Im hoping that he will be able to recommend some tests or perhaps do another lap and dye tests to see if my tube has 'unkinked'. I have been reading up on chemical pregnancies and all information has said that whilst they are VERY common, not many people even realise they have had one and even if they do, it is rare to experience it more than twice....this is my 3rd. My m/c in Jan was at 6 weeks, but im guessing this was a chemical pg too, just because it was so early and I never had a high level of hcg. In may, I only got to 4w and 3 days, and this one was only 4w and 5 days. Very frustrating! The information said that chem pg can be caused by hormone deficiences, uterine fibriods or chromosomal abnormalities. Im thinking that it would be unlikely that I have had three eggies with abnormalities, but rather that there is something else wrong. Anyway, hopefully ob can sort something out.

So, it looks like nothing much is going to be happening for the next few months as the appointment is not for another month and Im thinking the tests will take a few months too, so I may not be actively ttc till the end of the year! Even though this will take DH and I to 3 yrs ttc, im willing to wait as I dont want another chem pg, and I have a very busy year ahead of me, so it would be nice not to have the extra pressure. Oh I dont know.....Im in two minds about everything. This ttc is very tricky business for some isnt it????

Ok, well thats it for me, im sorry for the lack of personals I havent had the chance to read through all of your posts yet, but I will. I feel a bit out of the loop ATM...sorry ladies. You have all been so supportive of me and I feel like I havent had much to give for the past few weeks...for that, I apologise But I am thinking of you all and I am for a whole lot more BFP's to be announced soon.

Issy