Trying to Conceive after Loss or Miscarriage ~ June 08 #2

[kittens]

Hi there

About to start my first IVF cycle tomorrow. So scared do not know what to expect. A lot of emotion and memories of the first 2 losses. I just hope that I can survive without another loss. I not sure if I could recover.

None of my firends have been through this...I fell alone.

[~ Mylitta ~]

AJC - All your pregnancy symptoms are sounding great! When is your next scan? It's soon isn't it? As of today you've passed my "milestone" of 8w1d so I'm breathing a nice sigh of relief for you. I know we all have our own milestones, but I think the 8w1d will always make me nervous.

Kitten - I'm so very sorry to hear about your losses. It's such a terrible thing to go through. Unfortunately we are all in this thread because we have been through something similar, so take comfort in knowing that these wonderful ladies understand how you are feeling. The ladies in here are wonderfully supportive I wish you all the luck with your first IVF cycle, and hopefully it will be your last!

[Vanaithi]

AJC: very happy to hear from you & that all is well keep dropping in to give us some baby luck! sure need a lot of that here!

kitten: sorry about your loss - you wont feel lonely here, the whole place is filled with everyone who understands what you've been through. be positive & good luck with your IVF

[Easha]

Hi All,

was hanging out in the TWW however AF arrived today

There are so many people around me falling pregnant without even really trying.

I dont really know who to talk too, my DH is trying to be supportive but is just saying we'll try again next month. Friends keep trying to reassure me it will happen with time.

It's so hard to explain to them how this feels unless you have been through it - very down at the moment.

Sorry this is all about me - I hope you have better luck

[plc1805]

Easha and kittens - welcome ladies - so terribly sorry for your losses - we are all here for you.
smilanatu - oh hun i know about wanting to be pg before m/c due dates. My due dates for both m/cs had long since passed before i got pg. You just gotta believe ul get thru ur date if ur not pg and keep believing that it WILL happen for you sweet when it is meant to. Big hugs for you - lunar age buddy!!!!
krystielove - hey hun i love your list - very very clever!! Yeah I am from the west - near Sydenham. But like you i was also originally from the southeast and met my DH and moved to his house in the west. Never thought i would do that - that's what mushy love does to you! Sometimes I think I really am a southeast chick at heart but the west is certainly not as bad as i had pinned it for.

hey everyone else - hope ur all ok. sorry for the lack of rest of personals - ur all in my thoughts and prayers. went to ob yesterday hoping i could get a hb check to get me thru the next 2 weeks before the scan. ob said that he hasn't found a hb at 10 weeks to date but tried anyway. No hb but I am trying not to let it stress me. Gotta believe it will be ok.

[kittens]

thank you for your lovely comments. I'm not sure what the protocol is for newbies....I would just love to drop in from time to time and share and hear some stories. Most of my friends have babies by accident and those that do not are not planning or wanting to expand their families.

Each time I was pregnant coincided with a friend's pregnancy...needless to say one has a beautiful girl who just turned two and one is 10 months. These girls are so sweet and I am god mother to them both. I can't help but wonder what it might have been like if I become a mother.

The only other person I know who has experienced a loss is my sister in law but she lives in america and I do not get to correspond with her much. Her dream came true after 10 years of marriage, her little boy came very early and was with her for 2 hours before passing on, 2 weeks before mother day

Anyway....i'm going to take things one day at a time and not look beyond.

hugs

[jen805]

You know you're addicted to BB when:

1. You sign a 2-year contract and pay $60 more per month just to have wireless internet service for a 5 day camping trip! lol...

2. Your significant other walks in on you checking the position of your cervix, and actually gets turned on from it!

3. You resort to becoming an adult film industry advocate!

4. You read, post, and then refresh to read again in case you missed a post while posting!

5. You dream of being the first to post in the new thread!

6. You feel like you are wasting urine when you don't pee on a stick!

7. You see abbreviations in everyday life and try to work out what they mean in the TTC world (eg. DVD must stand for something like "Doing the vjay vjay dance"...)

8. When you get excited about choosing a new ticker....oh the choices!!!!!

9. You actually think in emoticons and abbreviations...and occasionally call your husband DH....and he says, "what the hell did you call me????".

10. And the biggest one of all....DH actually asks if it was a light or dark "BFP" (not positive test) and whether or not you used "FMU" to test!!!! (all in abbreviations...)

11. When getting a coverline makes you so happy, you feel as though you won the lottery!

12. When you look forward to going to bed just so you can wake up in the morning and add a new temp!

13. You say you are taking a break from bb and then spend 24 hours trying to do anything but log on, including cleaning, washing, ironing, shopping, all the while saying to yourself don't do it don't do it don't do it before finally breaking down and getting your bb fix...

14. You drag yourself out of bed at 6 am every morning even though you're still tired, just to have "quiet alone time" on BB while the kids are still sleeping!

15. You get the butterflies while logging on to read posts!

16. You keep your computer on all day long so you know as soon as someone has made a post!

17. You know you are addicted to BB when you go to put the date on something and you end up writing 9 DPO!

18. You're whole day is ruined just because you can't log onto BB, and you feel like you're going to go insane without your BB fix!



Looking great so far! Let me know if you think of any and I'll add them to the list! Still hoping this is ok with the mods!
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[tippytoes]

Hello my name is Rachel and I am addicted to BB.



Very very true Jen - spoken like a true bb addict!

Rach xx

[jen805]

Good morning girls! Updated the addicted list, let me know if anyone thinks of anything else!


WTH--How's it going with the temp shift? Thanks for the great info on implantation, it sure helps feed the mind! I had a small temp drop yesterday, then this am it actually went below the coverline. I'm just not sure how accurate it is--felt like I was going to pop around 2:15, so had to get up and use the restroom, I figured I'd still get a fairly accurate temp if I went back to sleep until 6. But I woke up at 5:30 and tossed and turned until 6 when I took my temp. Not sure now if drop was due to that or not, would rather think it's due to implantation, but I guess I'll have to see what my temp does tomorrow. :goodluck2: hope to see a nice temp drop for you!


mollycat--Sounds like you had a rough day with the kids the other day! That's all common daily behavior in my house--and my kids aren't even 2!!! So glad to hear that AF has been kind this time around, and your headaches aren't that bad. Hope the tamoxifen continues to treat you kindly, as well! Are you almost ready for your cyber camping holiday? I've heard that I'll probably have to drive around to find a spot with service-- guess I'll have to add that to the addicted list when I get back: You know you're addicted to BB when you drive around the campgrounds with your laptop open trying to find service so you can send your posts! Hopefully it will be surprisingly easy and I'll be at the one camp spot that gets service--yeah right, but I can hope can't I?


Krystie--Wow, that's a great list, must've been very time consuming! Hope you're continuing to feel better! Did you notice my temp drop? Just confused because with implantation isn't there only 1 day of decreased temp. then it goes back up? Would my last 2 temps both be considered as drops, or just the one that went below the coverline?


Vanaithi--How's those symptoms coming along? those funny feelings you were feeling are due to implantation! for us both!!


bettyboop--Temps look nice! Congrats on O, and everything's double crossed for you that you caught that egg!


Canary--Thanks for popping in and checking on us! Glad you like the addicted list, let me know if you can think of any to add to it! Hope you're enjoying the PAML thread, and getting a nice, fat tummy!


Hi smilanatu! Fingers are crossed you'll get a nice BFP before July 25! Did you do anything exciting on Father's day?


AJC--A couple more days and you'll be past that milestone! Glad to hear things are progressing so well with your pg'cy!!


kittens--Welcome and big So sad to hear of your losses, but hope you find the support you're seeking here with us! Praying your TTC journey is short and sweet, and you're blessed with a sticky BFP very quickly!


Easha--Sorry again to hear about AF, she's such a witch! Good luck again for this cycle!


plc--What a bummer that they couldn't find that little I'm sure all is fine--is it 11 or 12 weeks that they can normally hear it? Could you possibly request a vaginal u/s, I bet they could find it that way, it's a little invasive, but well worth it! So are you outgrowing any clothes yet, or are you one of those lucky ones that barely puts on any weight in the beginning?


Hope everyone else is happy and well! Thinking of you all always! I'll have to be on here twice as much today since I was robbed yesterday! lol.... can't believe I only posted once all day yesterday, had some serious withdrawals! Oh, had some spotting this am after BD'ing--but don't know if it's due to implantation or just simply from dtd, though it doesn't usually happen, so would like to think it's from implantation! Fingers are crossed--now I just wish this day would hurry up and be over so I can take tomorrow's temp! I really am addicted! Will be back later...


Oh, we posted at the same time-- rach! We're all addicts here, so you'll fit right in!

[smilanatu]

Morning ladies!

plc...thanks for the much needed hug!

kittens & Easha...welcome...so very sorry for your losses...may your stay be short!

Thank goodness jen got her BB fix! I sure hope it's implantation time for you gurlie!!!

Krystie...wow that is quite a list...it sure is good to know where we're all at!

AJC...bub is gonna be just fine! No worries!




:goodluck2: gettin' those

[~ Mylitta ~]

megsmum - Nooooo not a sinus infection! They are the worst. They give shocking headaches too I hope you get over it quickly!
I'm not sure if being sick had hinder conception... But I'm worried about it too. I keep thinking about how your immune system can fight a baby, and if your immune system is already on alert would it attack the baby?! OMG, now I'm probably just freaking us sickies all out for absolutely no reason Let's kill my theory by all getting pregnant this cycle!!!

WTH - Good to see you haven't disappeared on us!!

Joey - Mine and DH's intention was to wait... But then we just couldn't and we started trying straight away, hehe. Didn't work for us the 1st cycle, but I'm convinced this is going to be the one!

Vanaithi - Your chart is still looking really good!

Jen - I'm guessing you wireless internet on your laptop is not working? Damn! How am I meant to be stalking your chart when your not able to update it for me?! I hope you packed your thermometer missy! And I also hope your having a ball


Here's the list again. I've noticed that sometimes the days might be slightly out due to us living in different countries, but I'll try to keep it as accurate as possible. If there are any mistakes or if you want me to take you off the list, just let me know

Jodsan - CD3
Easha - CD3
Issy - CD6
Smilanatu - CD7
pbstar - CD7
Mollycat - CD8
Joey - CD8
Toccara - CD9
Tina - CD9
Abbey - CD11
KrystieLove - CD13
Sandygirl - CD15
Angel Babies - CD16
Acria - CD22 (not sure how many DPO you are sorry!)

Bettyboop - 5DPO?
megsmum - 8DPO?
Jen - 10DPO
WTH - 10DPO
Vanaithi - 12DPO
LizJessie - 15DPO


Jenushska - 5w5d
Laura - 6w2d
AJC - 8w5d
Mel A - 8w4d
mmteacher- 9w6d
Canary - 10w2d
plc - 11w
Katiegirl - 20w
Nickster - BFP 21+wks


Kittens - Sorry not sure hun...
SaraJane - Well we'll just have to wait and see...


I think I'm going to ovulate tomorrow! Wheee! DH and I are BDing so much it'll be a wonder if the poor little eggy doesn't drown! Oops, soooooo TMI!

[jen805]

And you all thought you wouldn't be hearing from me, didn't you? Tried to read through most of the posts, but still have to go back and read a little more thoroughly before I do any personals. We're actually already home--it was sooooo hot out at the lake (110 deg.) that my younger DS got heat stroke, so we packed up 3 days early. It's just as hot here at home, though--when we pulled up my truck said 107!!! I actually got the laptop to work before we left, but had trouble finding service at the lake. Trust me, we drove to the top of the highest hills trying to get a signal--I even climbed a slide in a weak attempt, but no luck. I'll have to add that to the addicted list! I'm SO looking forward to reading all your posts--thanks for missing me--you have NO idea how traumatic it was for me without you all! Will be back in a little while with personals.

Oh, but Krystie, I did remember my thermometer--mama didn't raise no fool! Will add my temps in a few, as well. Can't wait to hear from you all!!!

[mollycat]

good morning to all

Jen - glad to see you home safe and sound, shame you had to cut your holiday short, is DS ok? Tell the truth, it's actually your addiction to BB that sent you home early lol isn't it?

Hello to everyone else i've just been called to empty out the new bathroom so DH can paint it. So i'll pop back in later.
Krystielove - your list looks great.

[Vanaithi]

Hello ladies..

Joey: Hi & welcome, sorry you have to be here but glad too that you found this wonderful bunch - hope your stay is short! i also tried to get pg before my first cycle after mc, but its good to at least go through one cycle as you can then chart it and see whats going on with your body - get to know it better. you should try temping. i found out i od late - so it'll help you with you ttc!

Plc:

Easha: could it be o spotting???

Krystielove: have been sleeping bit better, less tossing/turning. oh & im only dpo12, expecting af on wednesday, but i reckon she'll be late, seeing that i o'd so late. also expecting huge temp drop in a few days... you catch the eggie this month!

jenushka:

wherethere'shope: if my temps stay up there for the rest of 9 months then it will be fantastic! doubt it though...

jen: have you tested yet??? im getting impatient to see your bfp!!!

[jen805]

Van--I actually haven't tested, although I did bring one with me on the camp trip, but just never used it. I'm just worried that 10DPO would be too early... and really don't want to see a BFN. I got a free test with my Preseed order, but have to look and see when it can be used, i.e. first day of missed AF, or whatever. It's still packed out in the truck right now, it's too hot to unpack! The only other test I have is from the 99 cents store, and I think it's too early for me to test with that one. What about you? When do you think you'll test?

[jen805]

mollycat--lol, my addiction certainly helped with the decision to come home early, but don't tell DF! DS is doing much better, thanks for asking, he's in the pool as we "speak". When we stopped for lunch on the way home, he threw up a few times in the parking lot, but the air conditioner in the restaurant cured him in no time. His cheeks were so red for the last 2 days that we thought he was sunburned, but the air conditioner took all the red out of his cheeks, and cleared his eyes right up! I can't believe how hot it is here today, I heard that it was 112 yesterday, and that we broke a record! Even though it's just as hot here as it was there, it's just a relief to be home (and on the computer!) and not stuck in a shadeless camp spot! So it's Sunday, does that mean you're busy stripping walls? How's those temps behaving this time? Hope your headache has gone by now, and that things have been sorted with your pay! It really sucks when things like that happen!


pbstar--Good luck with the acupuncture/herbalist/fertility guru! Sounds like maybe you better not forget the honey! 6 wks. is a long time to wait, but you can't rush perfection, so you're blessed with a beautiful blessing!


tina--Aww, what a sweet thing to say! I thought for sure that I would be long forgotten after 5 days of being MIA. I'm SO glad to be home! Glad to hear AF has left the building--and good riddance, I hope you gave her a swift kick in the a$$ on her way out the door! Sounds like you're going to have yourself a BD fest next weekend! Good luck, it's sounds like a well-deserved vacation! Don't forget the movies! lol...(c'mon, everyone knew I'd say it! lol)!!! Isn't it cool to have a link to your chart on your sig? I still get exciting seeing my own! lol...


Van--Thanks, it was a beautiful temp jump, wasn't it?? Hey, maybe instead of counting sheep when going to sleep, you could try counting HPT's, or OPK's or something! Or how about all the diapers you'll be changing very soon! Maybe that will help cure you of your sleeping problem! Sending big hugs, I know how hard it is to function well when sleep deprived! My fingers are crossed for you for this month! March is a lucky month--it's the month I was born! lol...kidding... I mean, I was born in March, and it could be a lucky month, but you know what I mean! lol...


Acria--Wow, what a great way to send your baby back to the elements! Sounds really touching and beautiful! Good luck with the house hunting and with testing in 4 days! Praying it's a BFP!


joey--I would like to wish you a belated I'm so very sorry for the reasons that bring you here, but so very glad to have you here. The girls here were the only thing that helped to occupy my mind during those dark days, so I know without a doubt that you've come to the right place! I pray that your TTC journey is short and quick, and you're blessed with a BFP very quickly!


plc--Thanks for the kilo explanation--I'll do my best to keep up with the kilo talkin'! lol... Ahh, and I've always wondered what UTD stood for, now I get it--thanks! How's that sticky little bub coming along? Are you feeling better lately? Hope all's well with you, sending huge hugs!


Easha--Sorry to hear about AF--she's such a witch! I was also very interested in the Jonas theory/lunar conception--I say take every chance you can get and BD like bunnies if it's your lunar peak! Oh, but remember it's anytime 24 hours prior to the date shown! Good luck catching that egg!


Krystie--Thanks so much for keeping up with that list--you're awesome! And you're now free to resume stalking my chart--I updated it just for you! lol... I actually thought of that while I was out driving to the top of a hill trying to find a signal--that you would be looking for my temps! Ooohh, good luck with the big O (both of them! lol) You had me with the image of that poor little drowned eggie! No worries, they're great swimmers! Good luck!


megsmum--Sorry to hear about your sinus infection--those are the worst! Hope you're feeling better by now. Good luck with your appt. on the 27th. Prog sounds great, good to hear things are looking up!


jenushka--Glad to hear you'll be hanging out with us here for a while! Can't believe you're 5.5 weeks already! And your symptoms sound great, that's a great sign that all is well! Good luck getting an earlier appointment, I'm sure it would give you some peace of mind. Sending lots of hugs and sticky vibes your way!


WTH--Your chart's looking great, as well! Good luck for this month, fingers are crossed for you!


Lot's of hugs and hi's to everyone else. Thinking of you all always! I've run out of smilies, so here's a few tons of baby dust and sticky vibes for everyone! Can't even tell you all how much you were missed--it's great to be back!

p.s. has anyone seen my ticker? I seem to have lost it! Maybe it's mad at me for being gone for so long! lol... tried fixing it, but it couldn't find the page (wtf?), so I'll have to try again later.