All of a sudden it's 930pm and I've got Chaucer to read & uni work to do, and have spent ages trawling through all of this, AND working out that DH & I are blowing about $2000 a month out of our budget on CRAP! Seriously boggles the mind...

Quickly - thinking of you MatthewsMum, I'm amazed what you & other women like you on here go through with IVF, I think you're all incredible, it must be terribly hard.

Saffy - isn't it amazing what we can talk ourselves into? And each & every month, it's like a form of torture.

Fingers crossed for your BFP Loops!

Mildez - life just isn't fair is it? It constantly shocks & saddens me that so many people that don't appreciate or cherish their children fall pregnant so easily, yet there are so many that would DIE for that blessing and it just can't be reached. Don't ever lose hope though...

Jellylove - our bodies are minefields, you just don't know where to step next. I hope things start evening out for you soon! Has the bleeding stopped?

JennaJayen - yay DS! It's so amazing how they grow, and always too fast. My DS is 3 in July & he's at a delightful cheeky/backchatting stage. When I tell him not to be cheeky he says "MUM! I AM going to be cheeky."

KitFaerie - some people in our lives really don't deserve to be there. Don't let other people bring you down, particularly when they're obviously insensitive twats, just appreciate the good people you have. xoxo I'm also interested in hearing what you're studying? I'm doing a BA through Open Universities at the moment, and I'm waaaaaaaaaay behind. I'm doing 2 units this study period, one in Great Books & the other in the Making of Australia.

Alice - your mum sounds really sweet, my best friend says the same to me, though hers takes a more religious tone, in "When God decides it's the right baby, he'll send it your way. What is meant to be, will be." Gosh nearly broke out into Que Sera then... "whatever will be will be, the future's not ours to see, que sera, sera..." Jeez I think I need to get to bed...

Ferrals - sticky vibes heading your way! Sounds like you need a rest after all that BD'ing!

Dory - hope you're still feeling well, are you going to find out the gender of your baby?

T-Hopes - How's things? Did you have a look at that website? Although you might not now that you love eggwhite so much... It still gives me a giggle!

Sorry to anyone I've missed, I've gone through 2 pages of backlog to try & get to everyone, but know that I'm thinking of you. It's so busy in here! If it were a real cafe we'd have people complaining about all the noise...

AFM: Went to dr's for my 2nd BT's today. The lady taking my bloods looked at me askance and asked "Weren't you just in here last week getting BHCG levels?". I told her that the levels were really low, and due to my miscarriage last year we just wanted to check that everything was on the up and up. I also mentioned that when I saw the dr last week, his POAS didn't come up with a positive, so she goes "Oooh let's do one now!" and of course, not one to turn down a free POAS, I agreed! So did the test and got a BFP straight away, very dark! I can't tell you the relief I felt, like a weight lifted off my shoulders. Certainly I still feel the threat of the miscarriage, and don't think that I will feel truly "safe" until I'm past the 12 week mark (at least! I lost the last one at 8 weeks) but to have a real definitive BFP just totally lifted my spirits. For the past week, even though I've had the sore boobs & slight all day nausea, I've not really wanted to believe it was true, not wanting to get my hopes up too high, you know? I'm keeping my fingers tightly crossed for this one to stick around, but now I believe I am pregnant.

Now I'm keeping my fingers crossed for more BFP's in here - never lose hope ladies! xoxox