Ohh guys - I'm sooo nervous about testing. I didn't think it would be this hard! Every time I go to the loo, I get really scared that af might arrive, then when it doesn't - it's like 'woo-hoo there's still hope'!! Very much a rollercoaster ride!!

Also didn't mention it before (and sorry if tmi) but I had quite a lot of thick creamy white CM again this morning - so I hope that's another good sign. Surely there's far too many signs for it to be mind games!! But once again, don't want to get my hopes up too much - it's only been 3 and a bit months since the m/c - surely I can't be pg again this quickly. I really thought it would take a lot longer this time but don't think I can handle it if it does!!! I'm also worried that I'm testing too early. My cycle before the m/c was a bit longer - maybe 35 days but what the hell - I can't wait any longer!!!

Tonight is going to be HELL, I probably won't sleep again. It's crazy!!!