SPF - that is awesome. Well done.

Sunbeam - is that a cat curled up in the corner of your avvy?

Murray - good to see the avvy. Sorry if I am a bit slow.

Just a quick post from me ( sorry I am cutting and pasting a bit here because i wanted to tell you about my day). I am thinking of you, and hopefully will be feeling more talkative soon. Still pg and no more scares. 10 weeks tomorrow.

It does feel like I will never get there, underneath all the bravado, that it my abiding fear. I am for the most part really thankful for each day of this pg.

FM - well today was my darling Amelia's first anniversary. 23 Feb 2009; 14:28; 455grams; 27 cms; 21 weeks on the cusp of 22 weeks gest, our brown haired girl. I can't and don't think of it as her birthday. That just doesn't work for me.

Today, wasn't as hard as I thought it might be. I was more affected leading up to today than on today. DH took the day off work and I am not working( one week as of today!), so we slept in and snuggled ( no BD for me, way too scared) and then went for brunch and then a walk in the park and along the river. In the arvo we snuggled again, looked through our photos, shared some precious memories and listened to the songs we had played for the funeral service. In the end as sad as I am, the most significant memory for me today is just how much our precious girl was loved and how much she gave to us in those fleeting joyous but heartbreaking moments. I am so blessed to have been given such a precious gift. So today? DH and I honoured our baby girl by living, and remembering her. I had day reams of doing something more symbolic, but in the end, for me, it felt contrived.

Take care.