Sunbeam - I'm so sorry. Yours was one of the first pg I read about in this thread. I'm glad you have the support of your flat mate - it's a tough time to get through. Like you, my first response was quite calm and I wanted to try again as soon as I could but by the second day I just fell apart. So disappointed for you. Take care and be kind to yourself x
SammyP - I'm so sorry you have gone through this so many times. It must be terribly heartbreaking for you and no wonder you are scared to try again. Lots of love to you and I hope we can give you some comfort and support here you need.
TFN3 - I'm sorry to read about your loss too - so much sadness - it's just not fair. Take care x
Jahzara - I hope it is just too early - be rotten to get your AF on your weekend away.
Minimatron - Melissa!! Wonderful wonderful news for you - I'm so excited to read it!!! Looking forward to your update. I'm five weeks this Fri since my mc and still no AF. It would have to be a spectacular miracle for me to be pg but I do get these episodes of magical thinking from time to time! I bled for about two weeks after the mc and it got heavier after about five days so I must be due soon. xx
TTCaLC - oh my goodness, when I read about your household it made me cry! So loving of you and your DH to have all those little ones to care for and sounds like it is super busy but fun. I'd love to have a house full of little ones - my DH is from a family of 11 and I just love it when everyone gets together. I hope you can make it 6 soon!
KitFarie - fingers crossed that you are pg!
SarahRach - i had a blighted ovum too. Horrible expression, isn't it?
MurryCod - No what you mean about the age thing, egg quality, and waiting...I think I stimmed my leftie out to the max too - so sore since the mc and I have a belly that looks like I should be pg. Sorry to read about how you've been feeling - I hope this little March blastie is the one. Hang in there x
Snugglybean - wow that would be fantastic if you are pg! Fingers crossed for you too xx
Ferrals - I haven't read your story but you sound like a very strong woman indeed. I'd love to see you little Abbie - I'll email you my address.
AFM - still waiting for AF, hating taking the DHEA and being so irritable, tired as all buggery and finishing up work. Think I'll give myself a bit of a break after that to try to regroup and get my energy and enthusiasm back. Most days I just want to crawl under a rock and let it all wash over me.
Ohh - I forgot to mention, I'm starting yoga tonight. The instructor said it was great to find your breath again (espch after what I've been through). Every bit helps eh!
FERRALS...Oh sweetie im in tears!!! What a wonderful thing you all did for Abbi and keeping her memory alive!!
She was a beautiful little girl! and do know she is watching you all and keeping you safe Bless you heart your one strong lady!! and i admire you!!
Thanks for sharing that with me...
Alice awww thanks sweetie.. I always get asked Do you have kids and i say yeah and i explain they arent really My own but i consider them all my children im adding a photo now of all 5 They are air i breath everyday and i cherish them no matter what !! there MY Life
thanks for the luck on baby 6
I just feel its my time to be a "real" mother i deserve that much
Snugglebean.. i would love to have the heat right now..lol
AFM... Sitting her watching the snow.We are getting 4-8 inches of snow tonite and allready snowing.. I WANT summer here 35 more days they say but with all this snow coming in it might be longer.. once it starts melting were going to have floods.. they said just our town had alone 22 inches and now another 4 -8 inches coming in.. GO AWAY SNOW!! for all
hi ladies, it seems we are all at a low again in here.Time for us all to get our wishes and try and get back to some form of normality i think.....easier said than done i know.
Today is what would have been "peanuts" due date and i never imagined i would feel as heartbroken as i do.Does it get any easier after "due date" cause im a total basket case today.cant stop crying and thinking of what we would have been doing now.I lost it at my dd this morning as she got sooky when i took her to her grade (grade 1)..i think she sensed that i wasnt myself and i feel so bloody horrible as i would never be like that to my children.....its all just so unfair.
Craftmummy - I do believe at our age it is probably about catching the right egg but I am baffled as to why I can fall pregnant so easily (usually within 2 cycles) if my egg quality is that poor. And my body seems happy to host a pregnancy as it continues merrily along even after the baby stops growing.
Ferrals - I thought about other testing but it's likely (if things still work) that I will get pregnant again before the testing is complete so I think I am just going to concentrate on being as healthy as I can and hoping for the best. I am not sure if that is naive but that's the way I think I can handle best. I will send you PM as I would love to see your presentation of Abbi.
MurrayCod - I don't think it's bad to have a low patch and focus back to when things were good. It's only a problem if you can't shake that off after a few days. I am quite a melancholy person and sometimes I like to wallow in these old memories. The trick is to just dip your toe in and not get fully immersed (figuratively speaking of course, don't get into the river!).
Sunbeam - I'm thinking of you today.
AFM - I am getting so desperate over my weight. I was 65kg when I first fell pregnant last year and now I'm 74kg. I started gym last month, 3-4 days a week which I've faithfully attended for a month now. I've seriously modified my diet and yet I can't seem to shift anything. Maybe this is another age thing. My body seems to just say, forget it, this is where you are and this is where you stay.
Ferrals can't wait to see Abbis montage! If I can't get this one to work, I will go next door and borrow their computer, I don't have much installed on mine XX
Sounds to me as if you are going to have a buisy evening when DH gets home!!!!
Atleast with the CBFM, you won't end up getting a UTI like the other month!!! Flying blind!!!!!
Alice, the DHEA must be just making things feel worse than they already are you poor darling XXX Enjoy the time off work, no added stress atleast X Take care XX
Sarahrach I think I 'o' around day 20ish too, I used to have 28day cycles but since MC last year they are waaaay longer and never the same. I only know when I 'o' when I stim!
FS gave me clomid to take next month when I am preparing for the FET, so atleast I can have a 28day cycle, not a forty something!!
Matthew'sMm, I know you were previously on clomid, with me taking clomid, if my blasty doesn't thaw, do I still have a chance to fall PG naturally that month??
I hope you are well and have had a nice start to the week X
I guess you are waiting for this cycle to be over too.....
Snugglybean, am holding my breath for tomorrow! Thanks for the support darling X
I think TTCALC needs to be sharing some of that snow around and stop being greedy keeping it all for herself!!!! Im sick of the hot too!!
But then again, when it gets cold for winter, I will wish it back
Crafty, for the last 2 days I have had migranes all day, I woke up thismorning so eager to feel better, but whamo, still there. Mabey I'm getting too much sleep. Dunno. But I hope you start to feel better soon XX
Mabey it is the Vitex, did you start taking it again?
TTCALC, thanks hun XXX
Mummyof4 if you are lurking, I hope you are doing ok sweety XX Thinking of how you are XX
Sunbeam, I know you'd be doing it tough today, my love to you XXX
Me, just poking around. Back to dreaded work tomorrow yuk! Made the chocolate of all chocolate cakes last night, am going to a friends house to drink iced coffee, eat cake and whinge about pregnant people....no offence to anyone that has been here though XX
More just the local 'fluffies' that get around town
My GF needs donor eggs she went through menopause at 20yrs of age, has had 4 unsuccessfull attempts at IVF, and I'm going over to keep her strong for the next one. And to eat chocolate!
Think the treadmill will get a workout tonight!
Murrycod-STEP AWAY FROM THE CAKE!! lol think about it first if you eat the cake you have no choice but to get on the tredmill if you dont eat the cake you can have a relaxing arvo without the tredmill the montage is in the process of sending it takes a little while to send and as i have had quite a few BB ladies wanting to see it my computer is struggling but it is on the way.
Sammyp-i will send it to you as soon as murrycod's is finished and the dreaded weight i know i have 3 kilos to lose that i put on in the months after Abbi and i am normally 61kg and i'm now 64.5 and i hate it i feel awful.
Alice-PM me your email and after murrycod & sammyP i will get it to you.
Sarahrach-i ov on day 16 last month and that sent me insane waiting but my cycle was messed up for a while hope it happens for you soon have fun withyour yoga class.
Snugglebean-Have you weakened yet and POAS i would have by now but that is the impatient ranga in me.
Hubbabubba-thinking of you today EDD are not easy to deal with and i does gte easier with time.
Murrycod-the converted file wont send it was converted to a video file which took forever to load then when it was almost complete it came up error so i'm back to the drawing board trying to figure out how to get it to you.
SammyP-just uploading yours now it's a slow process sending a powerpoint slide show but hopefully not to long.
Ok i will upload the video file to photo bucket and see if that work's the only thing is it takes forever to load a video file and it will be the not so perfect copy of the montage with the blue copyright symbol on it but it will have to do until we buy a program that will do it cross fingers it works this time
sammyp well the weight thing I guess is age related I have also got weight I would rather not have and tried so hard to loose it but no way Think sometimes its hard to be perfect ie not eat this and that and do enough exercise and eat healthy and all the other stuff while TTC but we have to have a life too !
That cake sounds lovely murraycod I already put on 2kgs thinking about it Hope your evening went well and you put the world to rights and had a good old chat with you GF I guess you will be good for each other and give each other strength to carry on your journey however long it will be ! Keep the faith and remember what I said about miracles !
Ferrals thanks for thinking of me, my headaches in mid cycle are a recent thing the last 3 mnths or so I only used to get these kind of headache the few days before AF arrived now I should be day 14 if my cycle is going to be a 28 day one this month, I stopped taking the vitex as it seemed that made it worse so got up with it again this morning pain killers take off the edge but I feel so sh**
snuggly fingers crossed for tomoro hope its a BFP, hope you remembered to put your clothes on before you went off on your bike today oh the picture I had in my head !
TTCALC looks like we are on about the same day so we could be belly buddies soon if we catch that eggies along with ferrals and murraycod and sarahrach oh wouldn't it be great to all move over together !
Hubba bubba sorry your down I am dreading my EDD which is looming soon be kind to yourself and try to put the last 9 mnths behind you now and start a fresh thinking of you today
everyone else I missed sorry keep well and be kind to yourself keep thinking positive and miralces do happen every day for the lucky people who beleive they can happen !
OK i managed to post i link to photo bucket but it is not as clear as the original so some bits are a bit harder to read and it is not as clear which i am dissapointed with and because it is a video file it stops and starts with the buffering but at least the ladies who don't have office 2007 can see it and have an idea try to ignore the blue copyright symbol in the left hand corner that came with the trial converter program but it does look much better in a slide show you can read it all so again i do apologise but thats the best i can do if it's not compatable with some computers OH! and if you click the little square next to the volume icon it will enlarge it again so sorry it isnt as good as the original.
Glad its now working well for you Ferrals and to see it again with the music is lovely !
AFM well the headache has lifted a bit so feeling much better ! been out shopping for my new neice and nephew that I will not see for a good few years as they are in the UK but needed to buy them something all the same, Did me good some retail thereapy and looking at all those lovely things I will be able to buy once I get my BFP,
Had my bloods done today as day 14 so 48hrs till my scan then I find out if im past it or not
Crafty- thought i'd show you my CBFM test stick's you can see the bottom line is the estrogen line see how it starts off dark then gets lighter meaning my estrogen is increasing and the top line starts off light and then gets darker and todays is real dark that is th LH hormone so i am having my LH surge now so we have some fooling around to do LOL pretty nifty gismo it reads the sticks and tells you when to BD.
Sorry to annoy everyone as you can see i have had a lot of time on my hands today.
Hi ladies - I can't respond to all the posts, but know my heart is with you.
Ferals - your tribute to Abbi in your montage is as beautiful as she is. Precious sweet Abbi, I wanted to reach out and just give her all my love, but she already has all of yours.
Sunbeam - oh blossom, I am so so sorry. Go gently, my thoughts and love are with you. I know not much really helps to ease the pain, but in time when you have the strength to return to us, we will be here, ready to give our love and support. Thinking of you.
Sammy P - about your question as to whether it gets easier with time? I am not sure grieving gets easier, its more than we learn about our grief and we know a bit better what to expect from it. I think as time passes our grief changes and becomes less of an obbssession, so as time passes we let other things and life in, so that the grief takes up less space in our lives, but is no less important? A friend of mine ( who is 40 this year), her mum had a m/c between having my friend and her brother. At my friends baby shower, her mum broke down and grieved for the baby she m/c some 40 years ago. A friend of mine whose baby son was still born at 39 weeks, still can hardly talk about him, even to me, and grieves deeply, three years on.
I am approaching a year of "first anniversaries" this year. A lot like you I spent a lot of the past year or so pregnant, and I am really not sure how I am going to manage. 23 Feb, 28 July, 30 August for my angel babies - Amelia 21 weeks gest, Nicholas 14 weeks gest and Sophie 19 weeks gest. Nicholas and Sophie are twins.
People can't comprehend multiple losses or grieving for multiple angel babies. I suppose until I had to, neither could I. But I think about it, that its more that I have more opportunities for love in my life and each precious little one, represents so much love, beauty and grace.
I hope you made it ok through your day. It's ok, I say, to feel so many feelings on important days. Just go with the flow and don't beat yourself up, just accept your feelings. Hope you manage the next date in a way that gives you some peace.
It has been a while since I last posted on here (I think December sometime). Things have been a bit positive for us lately. In January I saw a new FS who ordered more tests and prescribed me 150mg Clomid and 850mg Metformin after discovering I have slight insulin resistance. The end result of this is a BFP (by HPT and blood) without having to use any of clomid. I'm not keeping my hopes up given 3 m/c in the past 4 years. I know I should be excited but it's hard to be as I keep having mild cramps and I'm worried it will happen all over again. I'm off to my GP again tomorrow hoping to get another blood test just to reassure me things are going ok.
Sorry if have posted in the wrong thread but I know some of you know where I am coming from.
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Bless you heart your one strong lady!! and i admire you!!
Hope your evening went well and you put the world to rights and had a good old chat with you GF I guess you will be good for each other and give each other strength to carry on your journey however long it will be ! Keep the faith and remember what I said about miracles !
got up with it again this morning pain killers take off the edge but I feel so sh**
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