Heeeelllloooo ladies,

Just wanted to say im so sorry I havent been in here very much over the last few months. I was finding it really difficult to read stories of loss as it was making me feel so fearful. Im so sorry if that sounds insensitive, I certainly have lots of sympathy and understanding about loss and Im so sorry that so many experience it, but after 3 m/c in 18 months, I just needed to get my thoughts away from m/c. Please forgive me I never stopped thinking about you all.

And thankyou so much to all the ladies who never forget to mention me in their posts...you are all so lovely to still include me.

Well, I have made it to 12wks and everything seems to be going great. Many of you probably know that my mum is a midwife. Lucky for me, she carries a doppler with her everyday for house calls, so the other night I got to hear our baby's heartbeat for the first time. It was amazing! The next day, we did it again and found it again, 170bpm...wow, the best birthday pressie I have ever had. I have now shared the news with everyone and it feels amazing...after 3 years of no success, I thought I would never get here. I have my first m/w appointment today, so im really looking forward to that.

I hope you are all well, I miss you all and this wonderful thread. All of the ladies here helped me through some very tough times and for that I will be forever grateful. You girls were my strength and my inspiration THANKYOU!

Issy