Trying to conceive after Miscarriage or Loss May 2009

[Sunbeam]

Hi to everyone,
This is my first BB post though I have been reading your messages since the day after my last miscarriage ( I literally sat in bed with my laptop and read posts from 9am till 4pm it made me feel so much less alone). I am a single gay woman TTC my first child. I know there is a forum for gay and lesbian parents but I would really like to be a part of this forum as I have connected so much with your words have have gained so much comfort from these pages over the last few weeks, I hope you will feel it is okay for me to be here please let me know if it's not.

I lost both my babies on Anzac Day a year apart. It is now 3 weeks since I lost my second precious angel baby but it still feels like yesterday, in fact it feels worse I think I was sort of numb for the first few days and still on painkillers after the D&C. Even putting the little angels on my signiture made it feel more real and reduced me to tears.

I am now charting again and using my OPKs since my HCG went back to zero last thursday. I really want to try again before my next AF as reading post from other women who conceived in this time really encouraged me. Right now my temps seem to be a bit all over the place so I'm not sure my body is back to normal. I've had problems with my o's and it often skips a month or two. I was taking clomid when I fell pg the first time but even up to 75mg really did nothing to help. My FS now wants me to use 100mg but my dr and naturopath are keen for me to hold off on the clomid to see if the extra herds and suppliments do the trick. I'm so confused which way to go, I just want to be pregnant and then hold my forever baby in my arms.

Sorry for such a long first post just lots on my mind (and heart).