So sorry this is just a quick 'me' post, but I had my bloods done this morning and they have gone up 11 times higher in less than 72 hours which is good so far, from 18 on tuesday afternoon to 198 on friday morning. I am officially pregnant....but still not out of the woods yet. Dr is happy that they have more than doubled, but have to go back next friday for more tests. We are this is it....
I just wanted to give Mannie and Toccara big Girls I am so very very sorry for your losses I hope you both can get some answers from your doctors - leave no stone unturned! Massive for you both.
Issy - Great to see you back and congrats on the BFP! Those results sound excellent!
Sorry for going so quiet this week, I have just been stressing in a big way about this pregnancy and as some of you may (or may not) have noticed when I am worried I just can't bring myself to post about it But not doing too bad today, will fill you in on this week sometime soon when I have a chance to do some persies.
megsmum - thankyou for the congrats...I must have missed your BFP announcement, Im so sorry....Congratulations hun, that is wonderful news I completely understand the stress and not being able to post anything when you feel like that, I feel the same way alot of the time. Try to relax hun....I know easier said than done right?
Tam - have been thinking about you. Am so happy to hear that everything is going nicely so far. Am sure everything will be fine. Big Hugs.
Issy - Wow - so lovely to hear from you again, and even better to hear you have a BFP!!! Congratulations!!! Sounds really positive, wishing you a very happy & healthy 9 months.
megsmum - can understand you being cautious. I felt the same way, I was even scared to tell our family & friends at 16 weeks incase something happened. Big Hugs, you'll get there.
Mel1979 - My prog levels the month I fell pg with this bub were terrible! I O'd on cd19 (knew as I was temping) and because I took the bt on cd21 it just didn't have time to rise enough. I was so discouraged and my BFP that month was very unexpected. Good luck.
Big Hugs to everyone else.
Little 'me' update - still on 'rest', had some more brown discharge yesterday but is gone now. Saw Ob yesterday afternoon and he did another scan, bub still very happy in-utero (sp?) and growing nicely. I am not good at sitting still but at least there are some nice things on tv at the moment. The Ellen show is good cause she's giving away heaps of presents to people - nice to see such generosity & happiness when there seems to be so much doom & gloom about the economy etc on the news.
I have a strong feeling that this Bub will arrive within the first two weeks of Jan, call it mothers intuition we'll have to wait & see if I'm right.
Good morning girls! Sorry I've been MIA.... still feeling pretty YUK at the moment. Thinking of you all, even tho I'm not doing so well with posting lately.
To my Friday night chat girls.... so sorry I slept right thru it! Miss you all and will catch up soon when I'm not feeling so run down. Love ya lots! *kiss*
HannahD: sending encouragement--hooray for retail therapy.
mollycat: I'm glad to hear you're at peace. sometimes you just have to take a step back and work on other areas of your life (because you are more than just a uterus).
megsmum: keeping you in my prayers
AJC: it is hard to relax. Just do the best you can--we're all pulling for you.
Mannie2903: yes, I know what you mean--the cycle of trying and conceiving and losing definitely takes its toll on you. You and your DH are being very wise to take time out to concentrate on each other.
Let us know how your blood tests turn out.
jen805: sending cyberhug
issy02: I'm so glad you're hcg went up so much! (I'm having hcg issues right now...) That's amazing. My fs says that sometimes they start low and then shoot up. Best of luck.
afm: my scan went okay, fs saw the amniotic sac, but not the yolk sac (at least she wasn't sure if she saw it or not). but she said I'm kind of early to see the yolk sac. unfortunatley, my hcg, although it's climbing, isn't climbing as fast as they would hope, so I have to go back on tuesday for another scan and more bloods. My fs says they need to monitor it, but sometimes women just have a lower hcg but everything turns out okay. But I feel a little better since reading issy02's post about how her level jumped so high so quickly!
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Issy - fantastic news.....let me know how your recurrent m/c tests went too, it would be interesting to now especially for us who have suffered recurrent miscarriages.
Tam - YAY!!!! 7 weeks fantastic!!!! I'm sooo happy for you!!!
Indy - hope your travelling along well, thinking of you and your bub too...
Jenushka and fifclaire - I cannot wait for that day, to be able to see my bub on the screens, I'm so envious but soooo sooo happy for you after all you've been through.
Jen - always providing comfort and always there to give us a hug and tell us everything will be allright..thankyou so much
Tempus - thankyou to you too, I'm glad I have a very supportive DH, he's taking me out for fish and chips and a bottle of wine and we are going to sit on the beach and just sit and enjoy eachothers company. Hope your feeling good and not too sick and sore...but would give anything to have those symptoms back now
goodluck Mel I've got my fingers crossed for you and you get a BFP soon...the TWW is a pain isn't it, you just wish away the days!
Mollycat - Am feeling a bit like you too, I've put away my thermometer and my charts and suspended my fertility friend membership just need some me time at the moment so know how you feel.
Toccara luv know I'm reaching out to you and hugging you really hard, and wishing things could be different for both of us...at least you have one positive over me, you have time, so please don't beat yourself up too much and know that you will find an answer and you will have your bub. Unfortuantley I probably only have a maximum of 5 years to keep trying before I'm just too old. I won't give up though and I will get back to ttcing in the new year, only because of the biological clock, if we didn't have this damn clock ticking in our heads I'd wait a year or 6 months before trying again but I just don't have that luxury.
I have my blood test forms and will be going to get my bloods done next week. My GP called head of obstetrics at the hospital who told her what tests I should get done for recurrent m/c. She also wants my DH to have blood test on parental Karyotype (chromosomal test) his boys don't really need to get tested because we know they can swim and reach the egg and penetrate it we just don't know what DNA its got in there. So thats where the blood test comes into it.
Anyway the other tests are for those who are interested: anti dna abs, lupus anticoagulant, anticardiolpin ab; glucose tolerance test (75g) and thyroid function tests to begin with.
Will let you know how I go...
I feel like there is a big black cloud over me and I just can't seem to get out of this depressive hole, I feel so sad and useless and just down you know? Its such an overwhelming feeling. Glad DH is taking me out to the beach for dinner I so need it, I'm hoping it brightens my day a bit.
Hi to all the other ladies I've misssed and who have passed on their support, I'm so glad we have this forum to vent and talk to eachother about these issues which no body else understands unless they've gone through it themselves.
Mannie - I believe you have enough time. I've read on these boards about the test re: recurring miscarriage - my impression is once they ID the issue, most of them are fairly easily addressable. Please don't despair!
Hi ladies,
sorry i havn't been in for so long i dont really know why i stayed away so long.
Congratulations to all those out there who got BFP i wish you all the best and pray that your little ones stay healthy.
For those who have had more loss im truly sorry my thoughts and prayers are with you.
well i have had some bad news lately the clomid tablets didn't work i was taking 3 tablets im now waiting on some bloodtest results then my specialist is sending me to another dr to start on the injections. i was wondering for those out there who have tried the injections are they expensive? whats it like having to give yourself injections? how many injections a day do you need and for how long?
Hi Tempus, thanks for the reassuring words, know completely what you mean with the over thinking. I had to giggle at you ?my BB aren?t sore enough? cos I had exactly the same thought in the last few days? Also, I?m very busy stressing about my hcg at the moment (see below) but was reassured by one of my friends who was told thoughout her pregnancy that her levels were very low, but had no problems at all.
Mannie, thinking of you, hope you are getting though each day ok. Give yourself a chance to heal, with all the testing you are being proactive about it all which is really good. Hope dinner was nice.
Hannah, down with AF!!! Hoping for a Christmas baby for you.
Hi Issy, I?m one of the ?newbies?, hello to you☺ wishing you all the best with your faint lines (I?m putting a lot of faith in faint lines myself at the moment), your levels sound very promising, wishing you all the best.
Jen, you poor thing!! Please look after your lungs, and I hope you feel better soon.
Jensuka, fifi and Tam- yay for happy scans that?s so great to see!
Mel1979- all your signs sound positive, be it for O or bub, thinking of you
Megsmum, hang in there, we know your around and are thinking of you.
AJC- keep cooking that little bub
Smilanatu- down with AF!!!
Hello to everyone else. I?m meant to be packing for a work trip (last one for the year thank goodness) so just today.
AFM- well, not feeling particularly positive this morning. Went and had bloods done yesterday, and Dr will call on Monday to give me levels but almost don?t want to know. Still spotting (like mc last time), very light and brown and only when I go to the bathroom (sorry TMI), but not encouraging at all. I feel like my body just doesn?t have enough hormones to hold onto the little bub. Trying to be positive but refusing to get my hopes up, feeling a bit crampy and ping-y in my lower tum, but have almost convinced myself that my BB are sore so who knows. Waiting has never been my strong suit. Anyway, so not to worry about me, I?m finding keeping track of all of you really great- so thankyou!!
OK, off to pack now. Not sure if I?ll get to write till I get back, but I?ll certainly pop in.
Plc - thanks heaps for the pm, at least now know Angel is ok.
Hannah - hey hun, how you doing? Good on you for treating yourself to some retail therapy. Everytime AF arrives for me I always go shopping, I may not be a mother yet but my wardrobe is looking good!
Indy - you get good news for the Dr. Try and remain positive, everything is ok until you know or hear otherwise. Have for you.
Tempus - I also know of women who have had low hcg levels throughout their pg and they have gone on to have healthy babies.
Mannie - Good on you for taking the time to heal. I hope you find some answers from your tests. Sounds like you are in good hands with your DH
AJC - rest, rest, rest!
Megsmum - try not to stress, easier said than done I know. Don't feel bad about needing to take time out. Make sure you take care of yourself.
Rebecca - Sorry the clomid didn't work, hope the injections work for you.
Hi to Jen, WTH, buliej, smi, tam83, mollycat and all you other lovely ladies.
AFM - Well I caved today and POAS - BFN! I knew it would be but I needed a jolt back to reality. I am not due to test until the 12th so I guess there is a chance it is too early to tell. I am still having pg symptoms - sore bbs, cramps, going to the toilet every 5 minutes and I am so tired. I have had to have a nap for the past 2 afternoons which is completely not like me. Plus I have been in bed really early too and I am usually a night person! I have had back pain today though so I thought AF might be on her way. I know I did have back pain when I was pg last time but I am trying not to get my hopes up.
See how I am driving myself crazy here! I wish I could just sleep through the whole TWW and someone could wake me up when it is over!
DH is forcing me to rest (just in case). As a result he is cooking dinner. I think when I do fall pg he will want to wrap me up in cotton wool. Very sweet
Good morning my fellow BB-lonians! Going to try to catch up on some persies in between hacking up my lungs! Still feeling pretty cr@ppy and just blah... but very grateful that I went in when I did before things got too bad. I think I was probably a day or two away from being admitted to the hospital! It hurt so bad when I would cough, that it felt like one of my ribs was going to puncture a lung! Also had to work at the school on some fundraiser stuff for the last 2 days--but it was all inside work (like paperwork, etc.) so I wasn't exerting myself or anything. I don't usually do sick very well--unless I'm vomiting and restricted to laying down, I just can't stay home and do nothing all day long! Besides, I would've worked harder at home than I did at the school.... it was pretty funny, tho, the principal heard me coughing, and asked if someone would please call my mom to come pick me up from school (like I was one of the kids!) rofl....
Ok, time for some persies....
Tam--So good to hear from you again! Congrats on your great u/s!!
plc--So sorry I missed chat on Friday! Can't believe it's almost time for you to meet your little baby girl!
Mel--Sorry to hear about your BFN... you symptoms sound promising--probably just way too early to test. Sending some your way and keeping my fingers crossed!
tempus--Saying lots of prayers for this little one to stick! Hope your BT's and scan on Tue. help you relax and feel more reassured! Lots of
Hannah--Yay for retail therapy! Isn't it amazing how much shopping can help you to feel better? Hope you enjoyed your day with mum! *hugs*
mollycat--It's really great to hear you sounding so much at peace with your decision. I'm really happy that you're taking care of you right now! So sorry I missed chat on Friday! *kiss*
issy--Woo-hoo! Great BT results!
Megsmum--Here's your dose of cycle bud! To to relax and stay positive! Saying lots of prayers for you and your sticky little bub! *hugs*
AJC--Keep up with the resting!! I hope you're better at it than I am! lol... Isn't Ellen way cool? My DS2 and I were watching the other day when she gave everyone Wii's... I think it was the same day that she gave a little boy all kinds of Star Wars stuff... and he said "See, that's why I want to be on Ellen!" rofl... (We already got him a Wii for Christmas, he just doesn't know it yet!) Me personally, I'd like to be on Ellen and Oprah!! Anyhow, as hard as it may be, hang in there with the resting... it's for the greatest cause!! *hugs*
Mannie--Aww, hon, sorry to hear you're feeling so down! *hugs* I hope you enjoyed your dinner on the beach with DH!
Rachel B--Sorry to hear the Clomid isn't working for you. Hope the injections do the trick, wishing you lots of luck!
smi--OMG, aren't gas prices awesome right now? Ours was down to $1.73/gal. yesterday!!! I'm sure yours is probably less, but for California--especially Santa Barbara County--that's amazing!! They said on the news yesterday that by Jan. it could be only $1/gal!! Woo freakin' hoo!! lol.... Could you imagine?? Hope you have a great weekend!
Indy--I know it's hard, hon, but try to stay positive!! Sending some your way! Hope you have a nice trip--even if it's for work! Stay safe!
Just wanted to come back and sprinkle some to our increasing number of preggie friends: issy, Megsmum, tempus, Indy, Krystie, jenushka, joey, fifi, larz, pbstar, tutmae, tina, plc, AJC, Rachel S, Leyza, and missbec
Also wanted to give some extra to Toccara, Mannie, and Ruthie! Always thinking and praying for you all!!
Angel(In case you're ever lurking)--Always wishing you were here! Miss you and love ya lots! *kiss*
For the rest of us.... some
Would to see some Christmas in this thread!!
Thanks again for everyone's get well wishes! Have a great weekend!
Hello to you all. I must say that I have been lurking in this forum for the past few weeks and wished that I didn't have to, but unfortunately I have joined this club of women who shares my pain. I thought it might help to vent my terrible news to people who truly know what I have gone through as others who have done so have truly helped me through this time.
Our story.........
We found out we were pregnant in September..so excited! We had been TTC for two long years and it was such a day. One of the moments in your life you share with your DH that are just the best! We saw the little heatbeat at 7 weeks and we couldn't believe how lucky we were. Finally good news!! Then on the day of my 11 week check-up I had a small amount of bleeding went to the OB where he did an u/s to find a baby with no heart beat and that it had probably died between 9&10 weeks. We were gutted. I then had the terrible choice to wait and see if the baby would pass on its own or a D&C, I chose the D&C and had it done that night at the hospital. It all happened so quickly, that morning I was pregnant and so excited about my check-up & that night I was mourning my baby. It was the most horrible thing I have ever gone through. I cried and cried until there were no more tears left in me. My poor DH was absolutely wonderful and without him I don't know where I would have been.
I didn't sleep for about a week and a half, I could hardly eat as I felt sick and I had not an ounce of energy. This wasn't me, I am normally and extremely happy person, but grief (and it IS GRIEF) really effects you in every way. My mum was wonderful, she told me it was a BABY and I had every right to grieve, my poor sister didn't know what to say but she was there for me but bein heavily pregnant herself made things hit home to her. We had told our parents and a few close friends in the early stages and so I then had to tell them the bad news. They were really good and supportive. I described it to them that I was grieving, it was like someone in your immediate family had died, but you were the only person that knew them, so other people couldn't understand what you were feeling and I think that helped them understand my feelings.
I went to my Natropath about 8 days after it happened and she was probably my saviour as I had a massage and some relaxation therapy which really helped me start to look ahead. She helped me say good-bye to my little and look to the future. It was pretty hard at the time, but it really, really helped. From there I really started to improve and gradually my tears and worries slowed. I really did for a while there think I was losing it though and perhaps I was slipping into a dark depression but I started to try and look at the positives and this truly helps. 1. we got pg & 2. We stayed pg a lot longer than our last m/c & 3. DH & I have become closer & stronger as a couple.
We went to my OB two weeks later for a f/up appt and he said to us that it was probably a chromosonal abnomality that caused it which is about 50% cause of all m/c's. That helped as I didn't blame myself, but I did wonder if maybe I did something wrong or there was something wrong with my body which caused it. But it wasn't, it was just that there was something wrong with our little one and he chose to go rather than perhaps letting us have a harder decision to make down the track.
I was really worried about TTC again, but as I was diagnosed with hyperprolactinaemia in June 08 and was on medication it only really took us 3 mths and we were pregnant, so getting pg is not my biggest worry anymore. My big worry now is my next pgnancy and the anxiety that will come along for the ride, especially the first 11-12wks. For us I don't think it will be exciting, sure I want it to happen again soon and we have decided to TTC again, as AF arrived this week, but it will be such a long wait that I pray we get a :sticky: one next time. I am sure we will, because like all of you on this forum, we all truly deserve it. But as we all have learnt, life is cruel to us sometimes and we just have to deal with it the best we know how.
So here we go again, down the road of unknown, when we get our next chance, no one knows, but I pray it is soon and we get a little forever baby to hold in our arms and love because we have so much of it to give.
Sorry for the long post, but we all must never give up hope
Thank-you all for listening and I hope to perhaps stay around and get to know some of you better. Love to all TTC and those already on their baby journey.
issy - A dark line sounds positive. Do you have any other symptoms besides sore BBs? I didn't pay much attention to mine when I was pg, so I can't really offer any advice. Sending lots of
ajc - Glad to know bub is doing great. Keep up the good not-work.
mannie - Good on you for taking time to heal with your partner. There's something about the beach, where you can just 'be' and not worry about anything. Sending you lots of hugs. Hoping all those tests can give you some answers.
rachel - Sorry to hear the clomid hasn't worked for you.
smi - Its not over until she shows
tempus - you're HCG levels jump soon.
indy - Goodluck with BT results tomorrow.
Mel - Those symptoms sound promising! It may very well have been too early to test. and
jen - Hope you feel better soon.
Polly and Theresa - Welcome. I am sorry for you losses. You have found a great group of women here who do understand what you are going through with whom you can vent, cry, scream and laugh. Goodluck on your TTC journey.
Toccara - Thinking of you.
Ruthie & Angel - If you're lurking, I just want you to know you are both in my thoughts.*hugs*
Hi to buliej, tam, plc, megsmum, mollycat, fifi, krystie and anyone I've forgotten to mention by name.
AFM - Yesterday, I went shopping with mum and we have at least started on our Christmas shopping. We have decided not to do the big Christmas with the whole family this year, so this will be my and DH's first year hosting Christmas. I tried to get into the spirit and even put my tree up last night. It didn't work. I really don't want to do Christmas this year. I just want to go to sleep until February when this horrid year of the rat is over.
Sorry just read over that last part and what a grumble-bum I'm becoming. I'm fine until I have to think about Christmas stuff.
On a more positive note. I did catch up with a good friend today. Its funny, but she's the one person (apart from you ladies) I can talk to about everything I'm going through, but she has no interest in having kids herself. She is so anti-kids that its kind of a joke between us and yet she is so understanding. I guess thats what comes of being friends for over 20 years.
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this is it....
Girls I am so very very sorry for your losses
I hope you both can get some answers from your doctors - leave no stone unturned! Massive
to everyone....have a lovely weekend.
I completely understand the stress and not being able to post anything when you feel like that, I feel the same way alot of the time. Try to relax hun....I know easier said than done right?
today.
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for you.
your way and keeping my fingers crossed!
cycle bud! To to relax and stay positive! Saying lots of prayers for you and your sticky little bub! *hugs*
to see some Christmas
in this thread!!
and look to the future. It was pretty hard at the time, but it really, really helped. From there I really started to improve and gradually my tears and worries slowed. I really did for a while there think I was losing it though and perhaps I was slipping into a dark depression but I started to try and look at the positives and this truly helps. 1. we got pg & 2. We stayed pg a lot longer than our last m/c & 3. DH & I have become closer & stronger as a couple.
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