rach78 - don't be too hard on yourself. I can only imagine how it must be for you to see both of your sisters pregnant. It hurts everywhere, your stomach is tight and all you want to do is cry. But don't forget - your time will come too, and meanwhile, let the negative thoughts overwhelm you, acknowledge them, take a deep breath, and send them away, one day at a time. One day it will be easier than others, but know that you are working on it, creating a welcoming body and mind for your baby to come. I have tried out some meditation CD's and they have been quite helpful to me (I found a website on the Internet where you can actually download them to your iPod). I'd love to give you the site, but I think the guidelines don't allow us to post any links - maybe one of the more experenced ladies can advise how to get the information across to you?

I've only been here for a week, and I have got so many encouraging and welcoming words here, it's really an amazing experience. I am sure it will be the same for you.

A big big and don't forget: let the qi flow

A to all you lovely ladies out there!