Thanks for your replies ladies!
It has been a very hard 2 weeks here, but you girls all know what that is like. It is nice to not have to explain how i am feeling to some people, cause most people just really dont get it even when you do try to explain.
I havent talked to my Dr about any of this ( i am changing Dr lol) but i havent been told if it is ok for us to TTC again, if we shoulod wait, if i should be taking extra folate ect... i dont even know if we are allowed to ... do "IT" yet lol

Ferals, thanks for your nice words! i have been told by many people that it will get easier... but im not sure if i want it to get easier... i dont think i am ready for that yet.
can i ask wat PGD IVF is?? i have not really had any experience with IVF at all..