Bonelige I understand how you must be feeling.
I have been putting so much pressure on myself to make sure we DTD on the right days I was unaware of how "Un Fun" I was making the situation. Sure my DH wanted to DTD on the right days and have a baby just as much as me, but I guess they go through emotions the same as we do, just not the same ones!! Boys are weird!! And they think we are emotional!!!!!!

This might sound completely silly, and I know each of our situations are different. But this is how I get through my crazy days and I really hope that it helps you even if just a little.......
DH and I have been 2geth for over 4yrs, trying naturally to have a baby. We decided to get married in Jan this year so I had 6mnth to organise our beutifull wedding day.
I had so much fun, I loved every part of it, feeling like a princess, excited, choosing dresses, the anticipation, the 'Big Day' was comming so quickly. Sure everyone has stressful days and bad ones, but most of the time if we just take a step out and look in, it is actually fun.
On the day it flew, we both had the most perfect day but it went by so fast. too fast.
It's not until now that I look back and realise how much fun I actually had organising and planning and getting spoilt!
What I'm trying to get through to you is enjoy everyday of starting your family. Love each day and just accept it for what it is. Get spoilt and spoil yourself, because when that day comes, that you finally get your BFP again, no doubt it will go by just as fast. There will be different good days and different stresses to worry about. And that one beutiful big day when your baby is born will just go by so quickly.
Next thing you know you will have a teenager talking back giving you cheek!!!!!!

Well thats my story of how I cope and I hope that it helps someone else that is reading this xxx

Not much space for other persies I will pop in again thisevening to say hello.

Had my scan, my eggies STILL aren't ready today but will be on Monday. So nasty Trigger inj on Sunday and full steam ahead Monday morn.

To everyone talk later x
thanks.
and good luck for monday!!

Hi all! I dont know whether I told you all in here but I found my big brother who was adopted out when he was 13 months old. ON FACEBOOK! He had a profile made using his birth name, the ones on the adoption papers because he goes by a different name now, and I messaged him and said "I think Im your sister!" and he emailed me some questions to respond with and upon answering them he wrote back "I guess you're my little sister! Wow!!" we exchanged a few emails and then on fri night he gave me his number to call him on, and we spoke for over an hour about everything, it was so amazing!!

He suggested meeting in sydney in Nov, they're in Adelaide *him and his wife..* and he called mum yesterday after I passed on her number and said "for when you have dutch courage here is mum's number" mum called an hour or so after i emailed that to him crying that she just spoke to her baby!! It's so exciting!

The whole reason I started an epic search was because I said to mum "Im in the waiting zone for testing and I really need a distraction" and she goes "find your brother!" she had never done it because on the papers it stipulated that he had to come to her as she had no rights to him anymore. which is crappy. but anyway I called her 10 mins after and said "mum...I found nicholas!!!"

Now what am I going to do? I have 7 days left!!
that's unreal. isn't facebook great for that sort of thing. i hope the meeting al goes well.

Thanks to everyone for being so supportive. it's wonderful. Spoke with dh on friday night and asked if everythng was ok and if he still wanted number 3. He said definately. Long story short, but he was having performance anxiety and felt better off saying no than to have nothing happen IYKWIM. I said that he should've jsut told me in the first place and i admitted how pushy i have been and promised to let go and just take things easy and enjoy the ride. we "kissed" and " made up"

on another note....
did any of you get counselling or join a real life support group? half of me is thnking to do that. A friend of mine runs a group in the town i live in as she lost a bub at 32 weeks and had no one really to talk to or get support from, so started up a group a few years ago. i don't want peopel to think i'm not coping if i do go, because i am coping, but it's more to see real life people and talk and open up to them.