Well, it's official. Sweet baby number 3 has gone to heaven. My levels went from 548 last Thursday to 210 yesterday. We were referred to a specialist and are praying that we can find a solution to this. I can't believe I've been through this three times now. The only way I got through it the first two times was by convincing myself that there wasn't anything seriously wrong with me and it was just really bad luck that it happened twice in a row. There's no way I can keep convincing myself of that now. I am beyond terrified that I won't ever be able to have children. If I let myself even think of that possibility, I will literally die. Being a mother is the only thing I've ever wanted to do in my entire life. I just wanted to thank you all for your incredibly kind words. You ladies are absolutely wonderful. I am keeping you all in my prayers.