scarypinkfairy and alx- bug hugs for you

twinsister- bittersweet abut AF, at least you know it's there now and your body is ok but you still didn't want to see it at all. i was a timebomb when i got my first AF after losing our bub. I had a friend like yours, woudln't really say she was a friend though. and she was in my face constantly about her 3rd accidental pregnancy. she couldn't understand at all why i was upset about it. we don't talk anymore.

snugglbean what great advice...about bringing up the loss with people and not expecting them to. i was a bit wondering why my SIL ignored the whole topic as she'd been there a few yrs ago herself. that coudl be why, she may not realise i am open to talk about it

zstar good luck with your tests

starangelkfirst AF was brownish for about 2 days then full on normal. it was like that again for 2nd AF.

Murraycodi caved in. i've done a few tests lol. done on mon at 10DPO using firstresponse. BFN. read the instructions and it says test on first day of missed period. (due tomorrow or friday)so got hopes up and did anther test this morn..BFN. so i rang the hotline to ask if i test earlier than first day of missed AF will it show up. she said probably not and she doesn't recommend testing until later.
so now i'm all worried that AF won't even show because it's all i've been thinking about all month(AF and TTC) that what if i didn't even O so AF won't come and that'll just p*** me right off as my body has been like clockwork for years.