Hey girls....

Sunbeam, awesome to see you back
Eliselouise, I was so heartily hoping this time was yours. I hope it's not too much longer for you (although I'd love to be belly buddies again, I'm sure you couldn't stand waiting until Jan for your bfp)

I have had the most rotten day. I can't even look at my colleague who is pg, can't even be in the same room. Culminated in me shutting myself in my office, hiding under the desk and crying today. Like really really sobbing. One of the girls eventually came and found me, and sent me home.
Almost all of them know I'm leaving now - my replacements have been arranged, my boss knows and is devastated but supportive, and I'll be finishing at Christmas.
What I hate the most is that I'm supposed to be the leader, I am the director, and when I have moments like I did today, and they all see my cry, I feel so weak and like I'm letting them down. Which people assure me is not the case, but it's how I feel. I think that's why I've held it in for so long - this week has been the only time I've cried at work.
What can I do? How am I going to get through this? I've got 12 weeks left, and both colleagues are onyl going to get more pregnant. I know I need to talk to them, and one in particular, but how am I going to do it?
Have booked in to see a counsellor next week, might ge some strategies there. Just wondering if anything has worked for you ladies.