just want to day thankyou all soo much for the advice and support, guess there's no-one really that understands what you're going through than other women experiencing the same emotional rollercoaster, and what a rollercoaster it is. I'm trying to be strong as i also have ds(9m) to look after and he needs me.
made the decision to wait out the week and book in for d&c for next week. i couldn't go through with it this morning. don't think i was quite ready to let go of my bubba just yet. i'm just going to stay close to home for the week and just nurture myself and ds and if bubba wants to say goodbye then all good, if not i'll say goodbye next week. think i need this time to give bubbs some little chats and say goodbye in our own time and personal space. also dh will be back and i'll have him at home with me at night rather then being alone which is awful at the moment.
what more can i say than a huge thankyou for being my shoulder to lean on and i'll hover around to let you know how we're going and also to send you all the very best of baby luck and love.
huge hugs to you all.
Juleswa - It sounds like you are at peace with your decision which is so important. Being able to say goodbye to your angel in your own special way sounds like a lovely idea. My heart aches for you and to also have DH away, know you can jump on and talk to us anytime. Big hugs
sally - So sorry hun . Don't apologise, we all know how you feel and it doesn't make you an awful person, it makes you human. I am also a doting auntie and don't begrudge my sister her children (I love them more than anything) but my heart still aches for my own child. I so hope we all get our BFP soon
Rhi - for your January bub! Hoping buying a car is my lucky charm.
smallfryplus - Welcome, glad you have found us but hope your stay is short
boble - It's not over until RB shows but I know what it is like to torture yourself during the TWW. Good luck!
Megsmum - Yes, we test drove the Foresters but went with the Liberty! Our neighbours had a Forester and changed to a liberty after a few weeks as the liberty had more boot space. Big for you on your angel EDD. Thinking of you sweetie and glad you have your DD to cuddle.
Jen - That's for the update - Welcome to the TWW with the rest of us. May it all end in BFP's!
cherished1 - Sorry, can't answer your question about charting but I reckon Jen can!
Have to go but will try to BBL for persies - how busy was it in here last night!
Wow is it me or is it way busy in here?
Thanks for all your warm wishes.
I went to a funeral today, my DP's step sister she was only 38 so sad. But I do hope she is happier on spirit side, such a traumatic sole but beautiful at the same time. I caught myself holding my stomach a few times through the service, not sure what to think, but I hope she guides an angel to me next FET.
Got 5 frosties in the freezer, really want two in but I'm not old enough feel like a sixteen year old outside a night club. I really am a dork sometimes.
Hope you are all doing well back for persies later
Sally - i wrote you a big long message but my computer wouldn't post it - i hope it does this time. the basics were its ok to feel a bit "green eyed monster" at times like these. Its ok to feel happy for her and also be sad for yourself and the guilt that goes along with that is so so hard for a good person like yourself. It will be your time soon!!!!!
Greenslw - lol.. thats funny that you feel like a 16yo outside a nightclub. Im sorry for the loss of your step sister in law (i hope i got that right). I hope she sends you a forever baby soon xx
Juleswa - that sounds like a plan hun. I hope that when you do have to say good bye that it as easy as it can possibly be - which sounds odd.. but that is something I do hope for you in the best possible way. thinking of you during this hard time.. I am a bit teary knowing how hard it is what you are going through right now *hugs*
Mel - bet you can't wait for the new car - how exciting!
for your January bub! Hoping buying a car is my lucky charm.
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