You do inspire me, and best of all you all make me laugh, which is what I need more than anything at the moment! I'm starting to realise that this is one hard road, and I can't just pick myself up, dust myself off, and move right along like I thought I could. I gave myself a period of time to grieve and then thought I would be okay. WRONG! I don't think I am depressed, but I am finding life a bit hard. I fainted at work on Monday, was semi-concious for awhile (don't remember it myself). There's nothing wrong with me, but work think there is, so gave me today and tomorrow off. I said yes, not because I'm sick, but because I need some 'me' time. I feel a bit guilty, but I'll just have to get over that, they'll be fine without me.

It gives me hope to be in here with all you wonderful girls, and makes me feel much more normal about my own emotions. Thanks so much for your concern Lisa. You're right, being sad doesn't lessen the desire for a baby of my own, I want one so much sometimes it hurts! As I'm sure you all know! I am just watching out and waiting for those who will be testing soon......... It's nice to share others' joy!