It is so remarkable that I have got such wonderful support from people all over the world. I just had a major meltdown this morning because I know I have to go work tomarrow and all I want to do is stay home in bed under the covers and wish this all away. I just know that around Christmas time, someone I know is going to announce a pregnancy and I am going to be so jealous because that was supposed to be us!! I know a couple of my friends that are TTC and I know that they deserve it just as much but how am I going react to them? I had such a good outlook yesterday and now today I am just down in the dumps. I already had a major cry and feel like I need another 1. I know we will be okay but I just hate feeling like I'm back having feelings like we did after we lost Dawson. I just feel like my hope has been smushed yet again. Sorry for the rant but I know you all understand the emotions I'm going through. All I wanted was 1 more child. Is that too much to ask? Why does this have to be so hard? Thanks for listening!