Thanks all! yeah, I knew my cycle was probably still all over the place- but hope and longing are amazing things

I am so very happy for my friend who is pregnant- but almost subsonsciously the grief about what could've been takes over. That's not to say I would wish anything different, just acknowledging the feelings as they come i suppose..... I've also been on the other end of the spectrum- expecting my DD when others around me were struggling with IVF, so I do consider myself lucky to at least have a beautiful and healthy girl A great book by Zoe Taylor called "Pregnancy Loss" (aussie author, written because of her own miscarriages), has this great quote in it by her obstetrician. Zoe had a miscarriage, a daughter from her second pregnancy, but then two more miscarriages whilst trying for her second baby. The OB/GYN told her "we will try and figure out what is happening for you, and if there is anything we can do to help you have a second child. But, as it stands, your worst case scenario is that you have a healthy daughter".
That stood out to me, and has helped me get through the last month, 'cause I still have this amazing girl.

I am humbled by the different stories out there, and feel grateful for what I have, and send lots of to all fellow TTC'ers