Thanks Shan,

Lisa Hugs to you sweety, what you and your DH are doing on Saturday sounds just beautiful we had a memorial service for my brother who passed away from SIDS quite some years ago, it was to celebrate his 30th birthday and we released some balloons and it feels really special my mum said they represented our love going up to heaven to be with him, Please know that we are here for you, I wish I could take away some of the pain that you are feeling right now , hmmm its hard to be happy for someone when you are feelling so much hurt and pain its a tough thing cause you would never begrudge them a baby its hard to put into words as I am sure you already know but at the same time you are just extatic for them its a strange feeling.

Cass I was much the same I was a little affraid to come in here, my reason was not feeling like I belonged in here as many others have suffered alot more than I have, But I am so glad I ventured in as it has given me alot of courage to go ahead and ttc again in the near future, I am happy that you joined here too the more the merrier I think its a great thread thats for sure