Well its a bit quiet in here today!!

Possum- So sorry to hear ur bestfriend is pg i just found out that one of DHs cousins is pg.. i dont even really know her but its hit me hard.. shes only been with the guy for max. 6 months! I found out on fb.. i dont even think im going to tell dh.. ill wait til he finds out himself.. i know he lets things like that eat away at him.. i can handle me being sad.. i cant handle him being sad! Did ur friend find it hard to tell u do u think?? How has ur dh been coping with things the last few days?? They always deal with things a lot more differently to us..
Thinking of u.. hope ur ok considering. xxx

Damprye- Maybe wait a few days and test again?? Did u end up getting a first response test??

Forshelby- Did u get an appointment for tomoro morning?? And sorry to hear bout ur mamma's behaviour.. mothers can be ur best friend at one stage but at others they can be ur worst enemy! They just know how to push ur buttons without actually meaning too. Get this! My mum comes to OUR house and tells us whats wrong with it..like.. oh u better fix those steps soon..or.. u need to replace the guttering..or.. that deck is starting to rot, u better sand it back. How rude!! To tell u the truth tho im always on DHs case about fixing things.. but it doesnt mean my mother can harrass us about it too! It automatically sends me into defence mode..like..'mum! theres nothing wrong with it!'
Anyway try and leave ur mum happy.. even if u dont feel it.. u will feel better for it in the long run!

Bons- Yes i caved and looked at my ticker.. but since i dont know when I o'ed im not sure exactly when af is due.. so ill just be waiting! Good luck with ur new approach.. You'll be right.. the more u do it the easier it becomes to just make it a regular habit! i just told dh today that if im not pg this time we are only going to do it every 2 days.. i dont think everyday is very good for the little swimmers!!

Dory- Oh wat a terrible dream!! Who were u smashing??! Anyone u know?? Hope ur feeling all good!

AFM- Well dh had another sperm analysis today.. hoping the results are better then last time.. he had quite a high rate of abnormal sperm last time.. he has made a few lifestyle changes.. i dont think enough.. but time will only tell!! Hopefully get the results monday. I think maybe thats why im not going overly crazy this month and wanting to poas as soon as i can.. i think i wld rather not be pg while he has a high rate of abnormal sperm because i know i wld be terrified of something happening and losing it. But with that said.. if i am pg then i will be over the moon and praying to god that everything runs smoothly!!
I had a bit of a breakdown last nite.. it came very unexpectedly.. i was ready to go to bed, jumped in the shower.. looked down and imagined my 30 week tummy poking out and bawled my eyes out! I think i have learnt to try and not think about it.. block it out of my mind.. but earlier that nite i went on babycenter.com just to check an article out and realised that when i was pg i put my duedate in.. so as soon as i entered the website it can up with.. U are 30 weeks pregnant.. Made me so sad I find it hard at times to show all my emotions to dh so im glad he wasnt here for my little episode. (he got back this arvo)
I also check out the PAML thread to see whats going on in there.. i actually think it tortures me more then anything tho! it hurts to see the girls in there having all these symptoms that i shld be having.
Anyway sorry for the long rambling me-ness!! Maybe af is on her way and thats why im feeling down
Love and hugs to u all! xxx