erybery,

I was exactly were you are now two weeks ago.

Please be so careful about your mental health through this time, Traumatic Shock is how most of us react.

Not that it would of helped for me but self doubt and blame isn't the path to take,
but it is so so hard to feel anything but that during this time.

We had a four day lead into the termination and Im sure I was in 100% shock for the next 5 days and on the 6th day when I began to realise and acknowledge what had happened the drop was so fast balck and scary I didn't think I would ghet out of it.

If the only advice I can give you is to find a pre-post natal loss specialist and get you doctor to set up a medicare mental health thing and get into to see them as soon as you can.

Nothing anyone did or said helped and Im sure you are in the same condition.

Feeling like re-producing is the most 'natural' thing a women can do and when you feel like your body hates you and fails you isn't something that just goes away.

2 weeks later I still feel like Im in a numb state but the difference in just a few days is so big, just so much more to go.

All my thoughts and love is with you.

xxoo