Jen I'm still around, just feeling like cra...... for the last few days. Got headaches that won't seem to shift, feel like throwing up and generally feeling yuck. Makes it very hard sometimes to work with the kids as I can't find their volume switches, but I hate taking time off and putting families out.
DH and I went to the Toni Childs concert last night (brilliant), it's our 17th wedding anniversary on Sunday so we got in a little early. It's also the 1st anniversary of the death of our friend on Saturday so i'm sure that we won't be feeling like celebrating anyway. It's just a hard time of year, but we'll get through it.
PLC
Babyfever hope the doctors ring you back soon with those results.
I ve had a difficult morning this morning.... lots and lots of tears..... Not because of the egg hunt... found lots of those...(i always was good at easter time) but because as i was waiting to get the needle to take home to use to trigger on Saturday night... I had to sit in the waiting room..... 2 absolutely adorable tiny tiny little babies were in there.... I sat there for a while coping with it... then the tears started..... I kept picturing the twins... i closed my eyes so i couldnt see them but I could see my angels regardless of whether my eyes were closed or not. Then the tears came thick and fast.... I ended up having to walk out .... it was turning into an "ugly cry" and you can never do an ugly cry in public.
So I ve spent the time trying to pull myself together.... I come on here.... and I just want to hug you (Jen Jen Krystie Birthday Buddy) I was reading through your posts through tears but also laughing. Thank You Thank You Thank You... Love you all.
BFN for me this morning....still no AF. I think I ovulated veeeerrrrryyyyy late, as my temp was still low only a few days ago, which made me think I didnt ovulate at all, but is high now. Weird! I have this fear that im going through early menopause Stupid cycles
Oh Angel your story made me tear up I know how you feel and wish you so much luck !!! I think are angel babies are with us and they watch over us I know it hurts and ttc is very frustrating sometimes but don't stress your body and keep trying and keep believing you will get that forever baby one day because you will !!!
Jen you are part of the reason why I am being brave and ttc again so I want you get your BFP because you have been so sweet and nice to me since I have been posting here ...
Larz, plc and megmums thanks for thinking of me I'm doing better still get a little teary eyed sometimes but I'm ready to move on get a good ob and fs and ttc again ...
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Just wanted to make an appearance to let you all know I am still around. Feeling very sorry for myself at the moment so I want to keep a low profile so the negativity doesn't spread.
Ruthie & Toccara - You're both still in my thoughts.
Adele - Enjoy the retreat. Its good that you're taking some time to heal. I'm so jealous
Jen - Here's hoping for that BFP!
Babyfever - Hope those lab results get sorted out soon.
Angel - Not sure I can say anything to make it easier but
AFM - I'm off to Sydney for a course next week. I don't know how I'm going to go a whole week without DH by my side, but I'm sure I'll be so busy that it'll keep my mind off of things. When I get back, it'll be time for counselling I think. The only reason I haven't gone yet is that I don't really see how it will help. But it can't hurt either, so I'll give it a try.
Babyfever--Could the +hpt's be from the injection you received--maybe it's just screwing with your body--I never thought it was possible for a BT to be wrong. Hope it all gets worked out soon so you have an answer either way.
plc--Your's and Krystie's avi's DO look like twins!! How funny is that? So glad you're always lurking--I like knowing I always have another friend watching over me! I check up on you quite often in the PAML thread, as well!
Krystie--I told you throwing popcorn (lol, I accidentally typed poopcorn at first! ) at Angel's doc was a big NO NO!! Now you've gone and confused him and Angel's DH's spermies are going to be implanted into a popcorn kernel instead of an egg!
Oh, and your avi always brings a smile to my face There's no words...
mollycat--Sorry you're feeling so crappy, my friend! Is it from the Metformin (or whatever it's called?) Congrats on your 17th Anniversary on Sunday--17 years is amazing!! Sorry that it will be bittersweet, as it's the anniversary of the death of your friend.... may I ask what happened? You've mentioned her several times, and I've always wondered but was unsure about whether I should ask. If you don't want to talk about it, there's no hurt feelings, I completely understand.
Jen - i'll send you an email with details. I don't think its the metformin, just a bug going around. Hopefully with the weekend coming up i'll be able to rest a little and get over it.
For everyone, very short version - close friend, like a grandmother to our children was murdered by someone she knew. This person handed himself in and has been sentenced under the mental health act.
Oh, no Angel.... not the ugly cry in public! I'm sorry it was so rough for you! Just remember that one day very soon you'll be holding your very own forever baby (or two, or three... ) I know it seems like you've been waiting forever, but imagine how sweet the reward when you're holding your little one after all this effort you've put forth to produce your little miracle! It will be SO worth the wait--I promise! Big, huge, super-duper squishy hugs for you! And let's not forget that *kiss*!!
issy--Buggers! Sorry to hear about your BFN.... even when you're "not really trying" I know it's still really disappointing! Maybe you O'ed late, and there's still a chance for this month! Will keep my fingers crossed just in case!
larz--Sorry to hear your nausea has turned into full-blown vomiting... hope it goes away soon!
Toccara--Awww, now what could I have possibly done to have been honored by a comment like that??? You're so sweet--thanks so much, you've made me blush! You're being brave because you're a strong, smart, amazing person--that has nothing to do with me!
Hannah--Please don't feel like you have to stay away when you're down! The girls here are a tower of strength and support--we're here to listen whether it's negative or positive! Don't ever feel bad for needing to vent your feelings... frustration, anger, tears... whatever--all of us together make for some very broad crying shoulders!
Angel-I didn't know it was Easter there?? So much that I know about differant parts of the world. I'm sorry that things were hard for you today I can't imagin your pain right now & the thoughts going in your mind when you were in that situation today. I'm so sorry. I wish there was more I could do to comfort you.
Molly-Big OMG! That's nuts. I'm sorry to hear that happened. That person should like be killed. I swear people get away with so much these days.
Jen- Actully I asked the Nurse that and she said no if it was your shot it would be in your blood. I also looked this up on the internet about that too just in case cuz I thought maybe could be why as well... Heres what I found "Two consecutive quantitative hCG (Human Chorionic Gonadotropin) beta blood tests can determine whether the hCG is from an injection or pregnancy. If the hCG (Human Chorionic Gonadotropin) level increases by the second test then there is distinct probability that you are pregnant". So, I'm betting that the test was a lab screw up.
Hello lovelies - got back from Sydney yesterday. The funeral went as well as could be. DS was so well behaved the entire time - very proud of him.
I'm CD12 today and have had some signs that o is close - if so it will be a few days earlier than normal...normal for me is CD16/17. Today I had a so close it was almost positive opk - I reckon tonight or tomorrow it will be a definite positive. Full on o pains on the left too. Weirdy things happening with my temp today - shot right up but had too many blankets on and woke up hot an hour later than normal so am hoping I haven't o'd already - don't really think I have though.... will be on the hunt for those this weekend I think!! Bring on the bd fest!
angelbabies - hope you enjoyed the acupuncture
babyfever - I really hope they can give you some answers soon... very strange that the hcg would be showing up in urine and not on a bt...
jen- am hoping that af doesn't show up for you despite the dipping temps... how are you doing otherwise? Thanks for being the star of the show and always remembering everyone in your posts...
mollycat - I am so sorry to hear of the details of your friends passing a year ago. I hope that this weekend is gentle on you and you can spend some time quietly remembering her life.
Hannah - a lot of people find counselling helpful following a m/c - my only suggestion would be to try and find one that specialises in grief/loss or maybe even miscarriages and other pg loss. I saw one of the freebie counsellors that work pays for and she was pretty ineffectual - she didn't have any good tips on coping and at the end gave me a handout on grief and loss..... which kind of made me laugh. Anyway, good luck next week without dh...
toccara - am thinking of you
larz - sorry to hear the m/s has kicked in - hope it doesn't torment you for much longer!
issy - lovely to hear from you. Sorry to hear about the confusing cycle ... be good to get some answers either way I suppose
plc - thanks for popping in and so glad things continue to go well for you and your little girl
krystielove - just wanted to send some your way
Mannie - thank you for thinking of me in your posts. Hope you are doing ok...
Ruthie - just wanted to give you a great big and tell you I think of you everyday
Executive Decision....... I m chucking a sickie on Monday to "rest up" after the IUI.... I hope the boss dont mind.. I hear she can be a grumpy cow........ *mooooooo*..... hehehehe.... i m still sending DH into work though No day off for him... goodness... his part of the day leaves him with a smile on his face
For me... I m picturing a movie in bed.... feet up... relaxed
Hi to everyone, I am new to this thread so I apologise for starting off with a querie right away but.........
I wanna know if others who are ttc think every month that they are pregnant? I mean like right now I am thinking I am. Just been feeling a bit nausea and really hungry. I am always getting my hopes up, then they come crashing down again when I'm not. My monthly has started coming up to two weeks late so I get even more excited by how over due it is then I get it and fall into a deep depression. This has been happening every month since my last little miracle left me. I wanted to hit the doctor when he suggested that when I am that late it could be a m/c. I mean how rude, haven't I had enough that I know about without him telling me I could have had more. I am scared enough that every pregnancy since my husband and I married has been a miscarriage and that we might never have a bub together, not that he doesn't think of my boys as his too. But you know.....
So yeah enough waffling, just wanted to know if others get the same feeling that they are pregnant but are also too scared to test but then it turns out you aren't, but then you think it the following month as well and so on.
jen + Jenushka - thanks I'm the vomiting stops soon too!
Mummy of 3 - welcome to this thread, all the women in here are great and I find we help each other out so much even though sometimes we're on the other side of the world. I can't really help out too much in your case, I have only been pregnant twice. Once was an ectopic and with my current pregnancy I knew I was pregnant straight away. Could feel implatation cramps and was hungry all the time. So maybe your feelings are correct, but if that is this case then I hate to even suggest this but maybe doc is right also. Has your doc looked into the reason behind the m/c?? Don't mean to upset you at all
larz- thank you so much for replying. In answer to your question about the doctors looking into the mc's it's a yes and no..... my last bubby tully was formed with an immature egg which passed down through my damaged tube. They checked that one and when I lost Dom they said there was "no known reason" but they never did tests on me, just her . All up I have had 11 pregnancies, I have 3 healthy sons and the rest were angels before they were 20weeks. I know I have only mentioned two but that is only because I feel neglectful and like people will think I don't care as to the fact I don't have the exact dates. I did love them all but the other 6 were very early and each time I had a breakdown afterwards so my memory is blurry. I had the wrong doctors from the start who were never supportive due to my age and the fact they said it was a "good" thing because I already had 3 sons and I should be happy with them and not dwell on things out of my control.
I am still feeling like maybe I am this month, but trying oh so hard not to get my hopes up. Hubby is used to me saying it, he just says "don't tell me that, or you'll get my hopes up too" and sometimes when I'm not he says "I really thought you were this time". Thanx again
Mum of 3...... Standard stuff unfortunately..... EVERY last twinge, thought, feeling is a 'sign' and no matter how many times you tell yourself to think logically... stuck in your head is... its this month.. these 'signs' are strong..... blah blah blah......every now and again you get a month where you think.. na... its not this month... but they are the rare ones....
Now as for that DR..... hmm I have a standard way of doing things now since being pretty much emotionally crippled thanks to the thoughtlessness of my first FS.... If you dont like how they talk to you... CHANGE..... dont care about how qualified they are.... if their bedside manner sucks then out I go. My First FS was or still is the "leader in his field" even had a very high position in the AMA... but his bedside manner was the absolute worst. Wont go on about what he did... done that enough in here over the last 8 months.....Lets just say he needs a good slap.
Now back to the feeling PG.... I cheat..... From about 10 DPO i test. Every day I test. My theory is that maybe just maybe it will show that early, but when i get a BFN then in my head i m thinking.... well its too early.... so i test the following day... again if its BFN then again... well its too early...... by the time i have tested for about 4 or whatever days and AF finally arrives... then i m not so cut up because i ve just had 5 or so days of BFN so it all seems just that little bit easier to deal with..... The one time that I went a different way and thought.. YEP this is it.. this month for sure.. blah blah blah... I was DEVISTATED when AF arrived.
Well there you go.. for what is worth.... that s what I do.
mum of 3..... Age becomes less relevant when you have already had pregnancies that resulted in a healthy baby.... It still is relevant but not as much..... easiest way of putting it... your body already know s what it has to do. I also have 2 healthy children.. and am certainly no spring chicken....BUT everything my end is in order.... Its DH (who by the way is younger ) that we need to find a solution for....
Last year I rushed into IVF.... i kept hearing the FS.... "if we get the eggs now then they will be 38.... if we wait and those eggs get older"..... blah blah blah... dooom and gloom. So everything was rush rush rush... Now here I am knocking on the door of 40 and had a scan this morning showing 6 eggs but more importantly... 2 huge healthy beautiful ones..... Now thats not bad for nearly 40.
Looks like you might need to be bendin over and telling that nice DR of yours to kiss your Ar$e ... ohhhh i know.... im too blunt sometimes.....my bad
Stupid cycles 
that you don't give up hope and stay positive!
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to Krystielove, tutmae, fifi and ME
Hope it all gets worked out soon so you have an answer either way.
) at Angel's doc was a big NO NO!! Now you've gone and confused him and Angel's DH's spermies are going to be implanted into a popcorn kernel instead of an egg! 
) I know it seems like you've been waiting forever, but imagine how sweet the reward when you're holding your little one after all this effort you've put forth to produce your little miracle! It will be SO worth the wait--I promise! Big, huge, super-duper squishy hugs for you! And let's not forget that *kiss*!!
You're being brave because you're a strong, smart, amazing person--that has nothing to do with me! 
this weekend I think!! Bring on the bd fest!
. All up I have had 11 pregnancies, I have 3 healthy sons and the rest were angels before they were 20weeks. I know I have only mentioned two but that is only because I feel neglectful and like people will think I don't care as to the fact I don't have the exact dates. I did love them all but the other 6 were very early and each time I had a breakdown afterwards so my memory is blurry. I had the wrong doctors from the start who were never supportive due to my age and the fact they said it was a "good" thing because I already had 3 sons and I should be happy with them and not dwell on things out of my control.
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