Emmykate--So sorry to hear of your BFN... it's cruel sometimes the way our bodies can trick us. Since my hcg took about 6 weeks to get back to normal, it left my body feeling very confused and still very pg! I can remember thinking that maybe the dr. was wrong, maybe the u/s was wrong, I still had all my pg'cy symptoms--the insomnia, increased hunger, swollen bb's, some nausea.... More than 6 months later I still feel such a strong desire just to be pg! I just want to have those symptoms back that I had been so annoyed with then! The self-destructive thoughts I had early on after my m/c were that I had something to do with it, that I complained too much about feeling sick, and over the lack of sleep, and the weight gain, and how it better be a girl since I already have 2 boys... I felt like it was punishment for taking advantage of the gift I had been blessed with--for not being grateful for that gift. It took me a long time to stop that slideshow that just seemed to be set on "replay" in my mind... and then I found this site. It makes me just to think how important the girls here are to me.... especially the ones who were here before me.... I don't know where I would be without the unwavering support I have received from the friends I've made here. It's amazing, I never would've thought that I could connect so deeply with people that I've never even seen or met before--people that listen, care, support, advise, and, more importantly, know what it feels like! They laugh with you, and cry with you, and send you e-cards on your EDD (thanks, Angel! Love you! ). I found myself consumed with this site--and the progress of the other girls, and it has helped me in my healing process because it gave my mind something to think of other than my own grief and despair.
I that your body gets back to normal quickly and that you're blessed with a little miracle to hold in your arms! Oh, btw, you mentioned you're a doctor--what's your area of practice?
Whew! Is it me, or was that a really long post?
babyjubz, Abbey, & Rachel B--I'm so very sorry for your losses! I'm also sorry that we have to meet under such heartbreaking circumstances... the support here is amazing... please feel free to vent, cry, scream, yell, ask questions--whatever you need to get off your chest--there's no stupid questions here, and more importantly I think, there's no judgement here. You'll know when the time is right for you to begin TTC again... for me I wanted to begin right away--the longing and desire just to be pg again is overwhelming still! To this day, I still have a harder time looking at pg women than babies, yet I find myself staring at pg bellies everywhere I go! It's a longing that I can't even describe, yet I don't have to because the girls here just KNOW. There's something very comforting in the fact that you're surrounded by people who JUST KNOW what you're feeling without ever having to put it into words. My doc wanted me to wait 2 mo's before TTC (natural m/c, no D&C) ... I thought, "screw him, let him m/c and tell himself to wait 2 mo's!". I think it's a decision each woman should get to make on her own whenever she's ready--a simple u/s can verify whether the lining in your uterus is thick enough. I know with a D&C it takes a little longer because of healing issues, though, compared to that of a natural m/c. And I also know you won't O (ovulate) until your hcg has returned to normal, so therefore you can't become pg again until then, either. I'm also sorry to hear of your diagnosis with PCOS--several other girls here have PCOS, and also have experience with the Metformin and Clomid, so I'm sure they can help answer any questions you may have about that. I wish you all the best on your TTC journey--I pray your stay here with us is short and sweet, and you're all blessed with your little miracles very quickly! Big
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I can remember thinking that maybe the dr. was wrong, maybe the u/s was wrong, I still had all my pg'cy symptoms--the insomnia, increased hunger, swollen bb's, some nausea.... More than 6 months later I still feel such a strong desire just to be pg! I just want to have those symptoms back that I had been so annoyed with then! The self-destructive thoughts I had early on after my m/c were that I had something to do with it, that I complained too much about feeling sick, and over the lack of sleep, and the weight gain, and how it better be a girl since I already have 2 boys... I felt like it was punishment for taking advantage of the gift I had been blessed with--for not being grateful for that gift. It took me a long time to stop that slideshow that just seemed to be set on "replay" in my mind... and then I found this site. It makes me
just to think how important the girls here are to me.... especially the ones who were here before me.... I don't know where I would be without the unwavering support I have received from the friends I've made here. It's amazing, I never would've thought that I could connect so deeply with people that I've never even seen or met before--people that listen, care, support, advise, and, more importantly, know what it feels like! They laugh with you, and cry with you, and send you e-cards on your EDD (thanks, Angel! Love you!
). I found myself consumed with this site--and the progress of the other girls, and it has helped me in my healing process because it gave my mind something to think of other than my own grief and despair.
that your body gets back to normal quickly and that you're blessed with a little miracle to hold in your arms!
I'm also sorry that we have to meet under such heartbreaking circumstances... the support here is amazing... please feel free to vent, cry, scream, yell, ask questions--whatever you need to get off your chest--there's no stupid questions here, and more importantly I think, there's no judgement here. You'll know when the time is right for you to begin TTC again... for me I wanted to begin right away--the longing and desire just to be pg again is overwhelming still! To this day, I still have a harder time looking at pg women than babies, yet I find myself staring at pg bellies everywhere I go! It's a longing that I can't even describe, yet I don't have to because the girls here just KNOW. There's something very comforting in the fact that you're surrounded by people who JUST KNOW what you're feeling without ever having to put it into words. My doc wanted me to wait 2 mo's before TTC (natural m/c, no D&C) ... I thought, "screw him, let him m/c and tell himself to wait 2 mo's!". I think it's a decision each woman should get to make on her own whenever she's ready--a simple u/s can verify whether the lining in your uterus is thick enough. I know with a D&C it takes a little longer because of healing issues, though, compared to that of a natural m/c. And I also know you won't O (ovulate) until your hcg has returned to normal, so therefore you can't become pg again until then, either. I'm also sorry to hear of your diagnosis with PCOS--several other girls here have PCOS, and also have experience with the Metformin and Clomid, so I'm sure they can help answer any questions you may have about that. I wish you all the best on your TTC journey--I pray your stay here with us is short and sweet, and you're all blessed with your little miracles very quickly! Big
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