Oh Toccara... you too???... we can grieve our babies together. I feel so empty today.. I don't want to go out I just want to keep crying. Oh Toccarra.. I know this is not of any help... WHY??... WHY us??. Why do these things happen.. to you, to me, to all of us Angel mommies??... I want to give you encouragement but I don;t have the strength to do so.. just know that we are in this together and that I feel your pain ... I'm here at this with you.. I can't TTC again till after 2 or 3 months.. and I need to see a special doctor to help me "stay " pregnant and have a live baby.
I am here for you.. and we can grieve together. I had a D&C yesterday and I was put to sleep cuz I couldn't handle the thought I WAS Shaking and sobbing. I preferred it that way. Am all campy today and bleeding... I feel so empty, it's so hard to see that my bumps is gone and the thought that I am not pregnant anymore.
I am here with you through this...
Ruthie & ToccaraI'm so sorry this happened darling. I understand that it hurts bad to feel so empty. I lost a baby at 19 weeks & It was so hard after being able to feel kicks and having a belly to all the sudden loose it and feel so empty. And to feel that with the last pregnancy I Would have been 14 weeks pregnant on my 21st Bday which is on Friday the 19th. Big I really hope that they can get you pregnant and keep you pregnant. I have you guys in my prayers and hope that you have a beatiful baby to hold soon. I know it will never replace the ones you lost.
Ruthie & Tocarra - I wish I could give you both these in person. Please remember I am thinking of you at this time.
Abbey - sometimes just that diagnosis helps so much. I know when I was finally diagnosed, it answered lots of questions for me. PCOS isn't fun and games, and it is possible to fall pg, just makes it a little bit harder. My gyno diagnosed me after my gp told me that I was just overweight and needed to lose some weight. (I've never seen that GP since - went to another one who referred me to the gyno - the gyno diagnosed me by taking one look at me and then sending me for tests to confirm). I found a low GI diet and lots of exercise helped me to lose weight (I did lots of walking). I've started walking again which I hadn't for a few months to try and knock off a few more kilos and hopefully fall pg again. My gyno also put me straight on metformin and i've tried clomid and tamoxifen to help with ovulation (although I do O by myself).
Jen - thanks for that. Dad was diagnosed with cardiomyothopy (i think that's how it's spelt) when I was sixteen, he was given only a few years to live, so he's done great. He also has early dementia but he and mum are still living at home (they're 80 and 78) with very little outside help.
Wow ladies you have been busy posting away on here. I last checked on Friday and come back on today to see three pages worth of posts.
Ruthie It doesn't matter what you say or how yu feel. I still think your a incredible strong lady. Your story brought tears to my eyes that rolled uncontrollably down my face. With your heart and determination I am positive you will have your forever baby.
Tocarra Still thinking about you 2 and sending you lots of
Rachel, babyjubz , babymiracles & AbbeyB I hope your stay is a short one and you get a sticky lil jelly bean soon. So sorry to hear about your angel babies
Angel Babues Thank you for your beautiful song and poem.
Babyfever Glad to read that your okay. Wow it must have been scary.
Babyfever. mollycat , Tam & Plc: Thank you ♥ I felt all those much needed hugs.
I am cramping so bad it's not even funny. the thing is.. I guess since the D&C all tissue was removed I'm not really "spotting" much anymore.. my pads are almost clean.. but.. HOLY MOSES AM I CRAMPING SO BAD!!! I was told by a friend it could be my uterus going back to it's normal size.. but I know this might be a stupid question but why does my cervix feel like it was ripped?..it hurts so much "down there" and inside... I literally feel like a cat scathed all my insides. OUCH!on a a scale from one to ten I feel a 7. It's bad.. all over my lower back and below the navel.. not to mention what I already have.. the cervix. so sore I am.
I don't know why I tortured myself..but I found a stupid unused pregnancy test and I peed on it.. revealing a so beautiful BFP.. but who are you kidding??.. I know I have no baby.. it's just my angels hormones still lingering. Oh its so sad!!!! hubby noticed how my baby bump is gone... I took this pic the morning before I had the u/s that revealed the baby was in heaven..
look how cute my bump was that horrible morning around 30 minutes before I found out my horrible fate.. SO PAINFUL TO LOOK AT!!!
. I had a D&C yesterday and I was put to sleep cuz I couldn't handle the thought I WAS Shaking and sobbing. I preferred it that way. Am all campy today and bleeding... I feel so empty, it's so hard to see that my bumps is gone and the thought that I am not pregnant anymore.
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I hope your stay is a short one and you get a sticky lil jelly bean soon. So sorry to hear about your angel babies 
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