TwoMums: I just caught up and I'm so sorry about your dad, I can't believe that happened to you. I hope you're sleeping OK and have lots of support around you.

satya: *hugs* Cry if you need to though... I used to run to the bathroom have a good cry to myself then feel so much better back at my desk.

*Selfish rant*

I'm feeling really really low today. Think the lowest since all this crazy "round 2". Read my friend's pregnancy blog - she's now 14 weeks and telling the world. Have another pregnant close friend who was due at the same time as me coming up from another part of the country to see me in 2 weeks and I don't know if I can face seeing her imagining me. I'm happy for them both but just can't handle seeing the baby bumps And two other friends have had miscarriages in the last week. I so want to be pregnant again *cries* Had a client have a go at me for getting behind and I got so stressed and upset and feel even worse physically...like wanting to throw up