TTC after Miscarriage or Loss ~ January 08

[Katiegirl]

Hi Everyone. I am going to attempt some personals, so bear with me.

Treelo - I am so sorry that you are having a tough time. It doesn't seem fair sometimes, that after all the grief you experience, that you can't 'cut a break'. I think having a MC also brings with it the hard lesson of learning patience. Patience is so hard as all we want is to have a baby, and yet we are forced to wait. I hope the next few weeks bring you some better luck, or at the least some more information from your doctor. Hang in there, I am sure good things are coming your way.

Smilanatu - glad to hear I am not the only person with the hot flushes! Last night as I was cleaning the house, I got ridiculously hot. Maybe you will get some good news.... My temp was back to 36.3 this morning (after 36.5 yesterday morning) which is pretty much my standard temp. Not sure what that means....once again patience has to be used, shame I don't have any.

Angelbabies - I hope you get some good news this month. I also don't want to officially join the TWW as that feels too official for me.

Starrysky - can't wait for you to test - it would be so lovely to get a BFP this month. It would really give me a boost to see another one of us move forward. I will keep my fingers crossed for you.

AJC - thanks for your advice regarding temps etc. I have finally entered all my data into FF. The problem is that I am guessing that I had a period - I did have heavy bleed but the doctor has pretty much said that we can't know for sure. But I am going with that it was AF anyway. If that is correct, than I timed O well. And am now 6 DPO.

I am feeling a bit disappointed this morning. I was hoping my temp would be as high as yesterday. Even though I am trying not to get my hopes up, it really is impossible. We all want BFPs so much, that the wait is agonising. I feel like the year ahead is a really long path to walk. I keep thinking of where I should be and how instead of having a baby, I have to keep on with my life as is, working etc. I am not down as such, just melancholy.

Also it is DH's 30th party this weekend. I have hardly had any alcohol since the MC (most was 2 champers NYE). My best friend will be in Melb this weekend for the party, so I had planned to relax a bit and have a few drinks. Now that I am wondering if I may be pregnant (who knows???), I am thinking that I should not have anything. The party is going to be hard, as there will be a lot of people I am seeing for the first time. I just want to enjoy it, and would have loved to be able to indulge in some champers, but now not sure. Aagggh

And Angelbabies I know what you mean about people saying you are strong. I get that from all sorts of people, who say I am coping so well etc. Really, I find each day a struggle and I am just doing what I can to keep moving forward. I guess I may seem strong, but inside I am still grieving and the pain is still has sharp. I think we are all doing the best jobs we can with what we have been given.

Have a great day ladies. I really wish I did not have to do any work today.

[tempus moriendi]

Katiegirl: my feeling is that it is too early to have symptoms, but then other women might have had other experiences. Keeping my fingers crossed anyway!

Angel Babies: thanks!

treelo: don't know what to say to make it any better, but sending cyberhug

[Baby Angels]

Ok... well I ve been waiting on posts today for news...... hasnt happened

treelo...... Its a fast swinging door the one in and out of this thread. None of us knew we would be here and none of us know how long we are here for. We all hope that each other get s out ASAP but in the meantime we ve got some great cyber chocolate mud cake cooks in here, and a lot of just lovely lovely ladies. Some are a bit cheeky...... watch out for them, but they are wonderful. Jnr footbal club.... thats got to keep you busy. I remember (goodness dont I feel old saying it this way) I remember when i was pregnant with my son, who by the way is now 18, I also had a 4 year old step son. I decided (at the age of 19 cause of course you can do everything at 19) that I would take on managing the under 5 little athletics team. I walked around the oval on a friday night with all these 4 year olds teaching them how to throw a shot put, how to run 400 m instead of sprinting.... yeah now i know they dont listen but then I was convinced they would.... I was determined they would become the best under 5 team.......LOL. Then for years I was the one filling in for the coach when he was busy for my sons Rugby Leauge team...... Ohhh i could tell you some embarrasing tales there..... needless to say there are plenty of times i know my sons wished the ground would open up underneath them.

Now as for the "failure" part...... put out that hand cause here comes a big smack. There is not one person in here that is a failure. there is not one person in here that is doing any less than the best they can to firstly deal with their loss and secondly get on with their lives and then to add to that try and conceive again. The way I look at it, if you or anyone else in here gets to the BFP before me........ save me a seat, I dont know how long it will take but I ll get there and If i never see a BFP again then I ll pop by and visit anyway. We have very little control.... obviously we have the whole charting and IVF ect..... thats not what I mean by little control, I mean when we have done everything we possibly can we then have little control as to whether we end up with our bundles of joy. Please Please Please....... never feel like a failure, failing is only when you dont try.

Every single one of us is here for you....... throw a tanti..... get the chit s.... do whatever you feel you need to do, and then try some of that cyber cake.... its an aquired taste but the the calorie count is wonderful.