jenushka- huge hun. you are such a strong and amazing woman and you will get through this...counselling sounds like a great idea to help though. it saddens me too to think you are supposed to go through this yet again to get any tests/answers- stay strong and keep pushing for what you know you deserve.

please stick around and let us know how you are, you don't have to be ttc yet to be part of this family, you are one of us so no need to lurk, just jump in and vent and take advantage of all of the support we want to offer.