Wow I have been gone forever it seems like! So much to catch up on but I am at work so it won't be easy. First of all...

Satya~ I wish I could say something to make it better I can't believe all that you are going through! I am truly sorry and am thinking of you daily, you are an incredibly strong, intelligent woman. I am proud of you for taking care of yourself because that is what matters.

Dawnee~ I am so glad you have the opportunity to go on this probably much need trip! I am jealous its going to be soooooo fun for sure!!

I can't touch on everybody but my heart goes out to ALL who have been feeling down lately I am in that circle with you girls.

My trip to Chicago was a great one! Before I left I called my doctor and she told me to wait a bit before trying to kick start my period. So on vacation I was relaxing and stress free and my period came Aug. 29. I was excited (surprisingly) It lasted 7 days exactly. Then my husband calls me to tell me that good friends of ours is pregnant! I am so happy for them but I was a little sad it wasn't me as well. I now have 2 friends that are pregnant one is 16 weeks one is like 8 weeks or so. Plus my due date is next month. I am starting to feel more at peace but its hard. Yesterday I saw my preggo friend (one of them) we were at a football game and everytime i see her its oh my belly this my belly that and she ALWAYS says so you guys still trying??? Then My MIL turns around and says Oh are you late on your period? Then other friends of ours turned around and said you guys are trying? Are you pregnant yet? I got bombarded!!! I finally said LOOK we are NOT trying right now, I just want to have fun and yada yada I don't know if I want more kids so Please stop asking me because it just makes me want to NOT try ever! OK obviously none of that is true but I just thought if I said that they would not ask me anything next time I see them! Then I went home bawling, plus all the Halloween stuff is coming out I am so sad. ( I was due on Halloween) SORRY FOR THE SELFISH POST really sorry.