Firstly, I am very sorry for your loss and sending you lots of strength to get through this time. I'm on the TTC journey after losing my little boy at 21 weeks in July from an incompetent cervix. Yes, it is very very hard to start the TTC journey again. When DH and I decided to start trying again, the first time was a disaster. I couldn't stop thinking that we should already be pregnant and was not prepared to face the rollercoaster ride of TTC again. I was bitter and angry and so emotional I sobbed for about 2 hours straight and had to have the next day off work as my eyes were so puffy I looked like I'd been through 10 rounds in the boxing ring.

Everyone copes differently but my desire to be a mum far outweighs what I could potentially go through next time. I promised myself that I will be as neurotic as I like during my next pregnancy and will shop around until I find an OB that will humour me if the current one fobbs any concern off. I have to have a cervical stitch put in next pregnancy and will be required to have frequent check-ups anyway so I am comforted by that.

What was the cause of your loss? Is it something that can be treated next time around? Having a reason or diagnosis can help with the anxiety of it happening again if you are armed with all the information you can find on the cause. I have done so much reading I think I could become an OB now!!

We just can't give up no matter what... Don't be afraid of the unknown as it may never happen. Keep your fear at bay hun and keep telling yourself that you will get your much longed for baby - you deserve it - and it will happen.

Best of luck on your journey. Big hugs xx