Firstly ... I'm so sorry for your loss. I read your birth story or BA (can't remember which one it was) when you posted it and cried mostly through it.

It's really scary to TTC after a preterm birth ... It was for me anyway. It's still scary in a way, everyday after my prem-date is a new feeling and a new experiance. But you are right, one should not live life in fear. I have no idea what you must be feeling now ... I only had a preterm birth, I did not loose my baby.

All I want to say to you is that you should keep in mind that no two pregnancies are the same. What happened with Nikita, might not happen with the next one and MY feeling is ... if you don't try, you'll never know, kwim?

I am glad you trust your OB and that he is willing to take special care of you. I think that if you have a great relationship with your OB, your'e in good hands. He will know what is best of you and your baby and if you trust him to make the right medical decisions for you ... it can only be in your best intrest.

All the best ... with everything.