dd0207 -

Thanks for your response.
Our story is a bit of what came first the chicken or the egg .... not sure if contractions caused the problem initially or if it was a weak cervix. Basically when I was admitted I had buldging membranes (hence no cervical stitch) and was 2 cm dialated. the rest of my labour was "silent" until one morning I was 6-7 cm dialated and Niki was breech and had to be born via c-sec.

We won't know until the next pregnancy whether it was contactions that started the ball rolling or if my cervix buckled under pressure

I guess that not knowing makes it harder in some respects.

I have a fabulous Ob who has assured me that they will be taking no chances next time and that I will be monitored weekly and he will be happy to see me 100 times a week if need be (his words)

My desire to be a mum is quite intense its just stepping into the depths of the unknown ... can be so nerve racking. I don't want to live my life afraid but I am scared as hell - which I am sure is perfectly normal too.

Its just nice to hear about others in the same boat because it can be so isolating - same as mourning actually. My friends are either married no kids, single or have had uneventful pregnancies - none know what I have been through nor can truely appreciate what a big deal another pregnancy will be.

Hope your journey is successful and a happy one. please keep me posted and if you ever want to chat/vent pm me anytime

Nae x x