Thank you Sunflowa_Girlie

I'm sorry life has been so callous towards you - and I hope that your pre-conception efforts continue to progress towards your goal!

Maybe it is a time factor - and a bit of a cumulative effect - I had to put my 15 1/2 year old canine companion Zuna down shortly after the m/c and we've been trying to support DP's mum who has aggressive breast cancer and is travelling through chemo at the moment - it has been a year of endings in a lot of ways - so maybe there is a tiredness of spirit which comes with these things if I look at the whole context. Being with babies and pregnant mums - most of my friends are one or the other - fills me with joy and a sense of peace - I understand the bigger cycles go on regardless. So perhaps this is a passage that needs to be navigated and just accepted.

I have heard it said that greater experience brings greater awareness and so maybe the fear is just an acknowledgement of more of the rounded nature of pregnancy - the good and the bad - than I had with a first pregnancy that did not involve any complications and allowed a more oblivious state of mind. Must remember to breathe more deeply and see more I think.

Many thanks
Good luck with everything!
Karen van
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