Karen - i think there is always a degree of fear - what can i do? what can i change? will it happen again?

it doesn't go away - but it changes as you go through the steps. you go from being too scared to try, to scared of being pg, to scared of each niggle and pain as your pg progresses. you'll have good days and bad days. it's all a matter of learning how to live with it (which can be difficult!)

good luck
BG