Hi,

I've been hanging around in other threads, probably not wanting to join this thread hoping that this month would be my BFP and I wouldn't have to, but no. AF is here (day 2) and I feel wasted.

So sad, and worried and feeling useless. Frightened that my beautiful lost little baby (38w stillborn) was my only chance at happiness.

6 months on and my periods have finally become regular (ish 30-32 days) and charting and OPK's indicate I've ovulated and I've been DTD at the 'right' time and then this month, it appears my luteal phase has shrunk to about 8-9 days which (Google tells me) indicates a luteal phase defect. My normal 30-32 day cycle shrunk to 27 this month. Why? My luteal phase was fine last month. Why is it so short this month?

So, not only did I not get a BFP I'm also now worried that I have some sort of progesterone issue which caused my to bleed early this month.

I believe I ovulated on CD19 (as I got a +ve OPK on CD18) and my cycle was only 27 days long.....too short a luteal phase to permit implantation, so the books say.

Can you have one irregular month and then be OK or do I need to see a Doctor?

How do you all cope when those BFN come up month after month. I feel like I'm going to be miserable for days.

I hate my body. My useless body that doesn't work properly. I'm so very sad.

Hoping someone can talk me down off the ledge as things just look so bleak today.

Nicole.