Nicole - I hear everything you are saying. I am so sorry that you got a bfn and the wicked witch has arrived.

I know it doesn't take away the pain that you are feeling now but there are a few of us that are struggling to conceive following the loss of our babies. I lost my son Cooper at 37 weeks and it is nearly his 6 month birthday. We have been TTC pretty much straight away after we lost him. I haven't been ovulating so it has been very hard to fall pg so I know the frustrations. You have this desire, desperation to be pg again and it consumes you. Just know that we are all here to support and guide you on this journey.

Getting a bfn every month is heartbreaking but you need to pick yourself up and think positive that it is going to happen next month. Use opk's and have a bt like Deb suggested to monitor your prog.

I know the feeling of hating your body and feeling sick that you are stuck inside a body that you hate because it just doesn't work. You need to believe that your body will work and that it will carry another beautiful baby and you will have that baby, screaming in your arms. You need to believe and you need to stay positive. Please come and join us in the TTC thread. We would love to have you there.

Take care :hugs: