Nae sweetheart, I'm so sorry you're going through this uncertain time, but as always I am keeping everything crossed for you and your little beanie and I hope and pray everything is OK.
Sending you all the sticky vibes in the world and keep praying for you hun
for your little beanie baby.
I pray to God all is well, don't lose hope yet hun .
Nae -- definitely sending you all the you asked for and more. It's not over until it's over, and from what you're described it's definitely not over yet. There are so many examples of 5-6 weeks being too early to see anything and the downside to those very early scans is how much panic they can cause, even if the doctor knows and tells you that it doesn't have to mean anything yet. There are also lots of examples of staining, spotting, and bleeding that meant nothing or resolved themselves -- after lots of spotting weeks 5 through 16 and 4 separate incidents of big gushing bleeds, here I am at full term. We all have our fingers crossed for you.
Nae, sending you tons of sticky vibes sweetie and sending up lots of prayers that little Beanie is in fact doing well and will continue to grow strong. As some of the girls have said, spotting happens to a lot of people and turns out to be nothing at alll. Thinking of you.
Nae, just wanted to wish you all the best... I had spotting with both my bubs up until around the 5 weeks mark. a sac with a yolk sac sounds spot on for 5+4.
If in the event bub flies the coop please don't be anxious about investigative tests. I've had millions and most of the conditions can be treated effectively and easily. Your Earth baby is around the corner.
Cindee, a quick post to congratulate on your little girl's progress. She sounds like such a little fighter. Take care and pop in every now and then to let us know how everything is going. Sending you big hugs
Nae, I truly hope your little bub is OK and I'm holding much hope for you hun. Good luck tomorrow and I'm praying very hard the outcome is positive.
Sending your litlle bubbie lots of positive energy and hope it's a very sticky and determined little one Thinking of you hun
I'm very frasturated ATM as belly either crashes on me or I can't get on. Just a quick post in case I lose it again....
Teagz, that's a beautiful song, thank you. Just a quick note about SANDS, the meetings have helped me heaps since I've been attending, but it's really full on. You have to tell your story every time you attend (cos there's always unfortunately someone new) so it really saps all your energy sometimes. It's the only place (apart from the psych) where I fully open up with lots of detail about my loss, so in a way it's my outlet to let everything out, and these girls have all been there so they understand. I don't think I'll go once I'm pg though.
Cheryl, I totally understand where you're coming from about your mum. My mum really disappointed me when we lost Josh as she kept pushing me to get 'over it' and leave him in the past, as thinking of him is only holding me back in the past. I was so upset every time she said it. In the end I told her that she didn't understand, and that was really disappointing as I thought she would be the one to understand the best as she is a mother helself. These days we don't talk about Josh as I don't want her to say anything hurtful to me again. Really quite sad.
Diana, I think you should do what feels comfortable to you, and listen to your intuition. If you feel better if a stich goes in, then do it, as you won't relax at all during your pregnancy otherwise. The other thing you can do is seek another opinion, but ultimately, do what feels 'right' to you.
Megan, thanks hun. Don't worry if this month wasn't so great with TTC, there is still next month and we could be cycle buddies with Teagz in June!!! Really looking forward to June now, I'm learning to relax a bit and concentrating on other things to take my mind off 24/7 from TTC and babies!!!
Sooooo, Teagz, Megan, Cheryl, Dee & Lan, lots and lots of good positive baby energy and lots and lots of and to you all. We really need a new BFP in here soon, we are overdue girls!!!!!
Hi to Theresa, Jo76, Jas & Laney, I hope your pgs are going well and you're enjoying them now!
Tildy, Jo and Sue & Helen, hi guys!! Jo, Sue & Tildy, not long for you girls!! Good luck to you all, I hope everything goes smoothly for all of you lovelies
Rozie, thanks for your comment about your uterus after c/s. I really can't wait to find out how mine has healed, so I'm praying it all looks good on 4th of May. I was thinking about it today, and they didn't touch anything inside as the fibroid was growing more on the outside of the uterus. I think the issue with mine is that the wall is somewhat weakened by the incision so they just want to make sure it has healed properly. I don't think inmplantation is going to be a problem, as even when I had the fibroid, it was never protruding into the cavity. Fingers crossed hun!
Hope you're really enjoying your beautiful little boy, I so wish that will be me one day!
It's funny how we'll get a huge run of BFP and then it's a drought again
52 days beata!
Thanks for the info about SANDS, I did look into it a while ago but the lady who ran it liked to have one on one sessions first before you join the group and I hate that phsychologists feeling - I have a fear that they are just going to tell me my life is warped and I'm living it all wrong XDD And I quite like my life, depsite having to live it without my little boy.
Chez, I can't beleive what your mum said to you. I won't even go on a tagent on how horrible it is.. Just keep in mind that we are all here for you. We'll look after ya right up until you're holding your little bundle! After that we'll just live vicariously through your joy hehe
I have a bit of an oposite affect on my mum. She had a still born bub between my brother and I, Jamie, then lost a baby at 16 weeks, then finally had my brother. We were all terrible babies and each one of us came out with our chords tied in knots around our necks. Poor Mum, it's a wonder she hasn't got more wrickles and gray hair! She totally understands what I feel like and seeing me go through everything brings back her pain for her babies and she'll have a bit of a cry with me. Somtimes I wonder who's meant to be comforting who. It is nice though, that she gets it, even though we set each other off a bit.
You'll sometimes find that the last person you'd think would be helpful, will be the best shoulder to cry on. I have a friend who is as far away from having kids as you can get, and she's been amazing. But anyway... I'm on one of my tangents again!
AFM, So far, I'm not sick, my bits are gerat (sorry for TMI) and I feel physically normal. Those herbs are the shizzle. The next couple of months are going to fly by I think, Easter weekend, the long weekend for Anzac Day on the 25th of April, then DF and I are going away on May 15 for Jayvan's birthday for another long weekend. Then I'm heading North for 3 weeks, leaving on the 22 May and getting back on the 15th of June. Oh... I'm going to miss you all so much! xx
Tilda, Berry1, Teagz & Beata thank you so much for your wonderful words of support regarding my mum's comments. I haven't heard anything back from her since I sent the e-mail telling her to essentially back off and try being supportive and understanding. I guess I'll wait to see what her next move will be. I expect she will try to phone on the weekend but as we are leaving first thing tomorrow morning for our escape down south I only have to get through today!
Yesterday was very exhausting day for us both, physically and emotionally. I started the morning with an AP session but I found it dificult to relax as I was concerned about my GP appointment later that morning. As it turned out, my GP has scheduled me for a D&C next Wednesday which I am defininitely not looking forward to but she and the ob/gyn that she has referred me to has convinced me that it is probably the best thing to do. So now I am on 2 lots of anti-biotics, still off the alcohol because of them, and waiting for Wednesday. We were very impressed with the new ob/gyn our GP referred us to (the last one we sacked before the induction - a very long story - and used the public system) as she actually listened to us and treated us individuals and answered all of our questions, even though we kept asking the same types of things over and over, she was very patient, understanding and seemed genuinely sorry for our loss. Very refreshing! Oh and she said we should start trying as soon as possible after my first period - the whole dating thing again and that we should use BC before that - but I don't care because the chances of us falling pg first time around are probably less than us winning lotto, and we don't even buy tickets!
We also spent 90mins with a psych which was emotionally very draining, and I think beneficial for me. DH didn't really connnect with her so I am not sure what we can do to help him - he's not into support groups.
Anyway, that's my update. I hope everyone has a relaxing Easter and maybe the Easter bunny will bring some extra special for everyone!
Hey Cheryl,
I'm sorry you have to do a D&C but so excited that you can TTC very soon! And never say never to falling pg on your next cycle hun! I have adopted this motto now, and feel a lot more empowered as anything is possible really!!!
I hope your mum comes around. I gave up on mine but only b/c she is very stubborn and I can't see her taking a new view on things. She truly believes that my grieving and thinking about Joshua is keeping me from moving forward. What she doesn't understand is that I CAN move forward, whilst thinking of my little boy, he'll always be a part of me wherever I am in life. I'm just so blessed to have all of you girls and my 2 closest firiends (they both have had losses so they also understand) to be there for me and understand where I'm coming from.
As for your DH, mine also isn't into support groups. He went with me to my very first SANDS meeting, but then felt I needed them more so he didn't go after that. My psych often asks about him, but I tell her that he only really feels confortable talking to me about Joshua and that's fine with me. I just recently found out from his younger daughter Jayde that she had a younger brother who died at 17 weeks gestation. I was initially upset with DF that he never told me about Michael, but he said that he didn't feel the need to and it was in the past. I then understood that he grieves very differently to me.
Enjoy your trip hun and thanks for your Easter wishes. & to us all!!!!!!
B xxxx
Teagz, you'll be away when I'm possibly doing my transfer! Oh no!!!!!! You simply must find an internet cafe while you're away (if you can tear yourself away from your own agenda ha ha) as I'll need you here for support hun! It's now only 51 days to go for our BFP, it's starting to feel more real now....yey! I'm so glad you're feeling heaps better now and your girlie bits too
Diana, I suppose you must be at your busiest now Continue to look after yourself and just think this crazy time is almost over. Big cuddles coming your way and lots of belly rubs for you little one
Nae, I pray your little beanie baby sticks like super glue and that the next few months are a bit more uneventful for you hun. Big hugs sweetie
Megan, I truly hope the next cycle brings you a sticky little baby hun
Lan and Dee, always thinking of you girls and praying hard for your BFP's as well
Hi to everyone else, I hope the Easter bunny brings everyone a nice little surprise
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for your little beanie baby.
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very hard this little embie is strong and determined. Thinking of you hun
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After that we'll just live vicariously through your joy hehe
for everyone!
Continue to look after yourself and just think this crazy time is almost over. Big cuddles coming your way and lots of belly rubs for you little one
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