Trying to Conceive after Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth ~ March 09

[mummabec]

Hi everyone!

Teagz, I had no MS at all in my second pregnancy even though I had it badly in my first. They are all different! Hope you feel more pregnant soon!

Dee, wishing you very good luck for the transfer tomorrow. Big day!

Beata, that's good news. Hope the time you have to wait goes very fast for you. The last couple of months I've been dying to start TTC but trying to patiently wait.

Diana, that's great about the NT scan. I haven't had one with either of mine, but I might next time around. Everything has changed for me now re what I might and might not do in pregnancy.

Nae, I can only imagine the mixed feelings being pregnant with Nikita's birthday coming up. Anything you feel is alright to feel. Hope you stop having nightmares.

All those I've missed, hope you are going well.


Me, well having a bit of a down day. Went to an Australian Breastfeeding Association mother's day lunch with my local group. There were lots of babies there. I was ok though until I overheard a woman with a baby boy the same age as Luca would be now saying 'his little personality is emerging'. That's the exact thing I wrote on my facebook profile last week except mine says 'Luca would have been 4 months old this coming week. His little personality emerging'.

I am worried about mothers day too. We have church and then a big extended family picnic. I just want to stay in bed under the doona.

I should ovulate on sunday so tomorrow should be time to bd. Bding has been few and far between with me feeling so down so hope I don't feel too bad in the next few days as I couldn't bd just for conception iykwim.

The idea of being pregnant again is quite repellant. When I was pregnant with Luca I told everyone who would listen how glad I was that I'd never have to be pregnant again.

Bec xx

[helle]

The idea of being pregnant again is quite repellant. When I was pregnant with Luca I told everyone who would listen how glad I was that I'd never have to be pregnant again.

If it makes you feel any better I remember one day having a complete freak out at my mum about being pregnant (Jayvan was a surprise) and wishing that I wasn't because it was all just so overwhelming. I feel guilty for it everyday, like my wish came true, and I dwelled on it alot - what could have happened if I never said it? I think we just have to remember we aren't to know what the future holds for us, unfortunately, and because of that we can't always be accountable for the things we think or say after the fact.

NaeNae, I can't wait! But the nerves are still jittering around in there hehe. I'm not looking forward to mothers day either. And I know a few people have bought me things so I can't hide in my hole like I had planned and shun the world But never mind, I guess it gives the soul a bit of a stretch.
That's a lovely idea about the bracelet by the way!

ALM, You're just so clever! hehe! Hope you're all settling ok! I can't believe how fast the time has gone!

DD, yay for low risk! That's fantastic news! Good luck with the stitch, I hope it's not to ouchy for you. Keep in there little bubby!

Berry, I would wanna hope my dress fits over my belly! I went back when I found out I was pg and ordered 2 sizes bigger (if it's too big it will be easier to take it in than let it out) so fingers crossed. I did feel like I was playing with fate a little bit... but if I didn't change it and I make it to 6 months, well... i just won't fit into my original size I don't think! Especially not my boobs at this rate.

Beata, thanks for your encourging words. You always kick my brain back into logical thinking again!

AFM... We bought a new car yesterday in preperation for our expanding family! We got a 2003 Landcruiser, SUCH a good car and so well looked after even Dad couldn't believe it. So, now I can take bubs and the dog places together without them co-exsisting to close to each other during the trip XD (There I go tempting fate again) and, what's even more exciting is they gave us a $10,000 trade in for DF's ute. Which is bascially going to drop its motor any minute. Needless to say we signed the papers quick smart and high tailed it out of there before they could have to much of a look and realise how tired the poor thing is. I almost felt sorry for the car dealer... almost.

[mummabec]

If it makes you feel any better I remember one day having a complete freak out at my mum about being pregnant (Jayvan was a surprise) and wishing that I wasn't because it was all just so overwhelming. I feel guilty for it everyday, like my wish came true, and I dwelled on it alot - what could have happened if I never said it? I think we just have to remember we aren't to know what the future holds for us, unfortunately, and because of that we can't always be accountable for the things we think or say after the fact.

Yeah, I hear you there. I didn't want a boy
Though of course by the time I lost him I did (we found out at 20 weeks).

xx Bec.

[helle]

Yeah, I hear you there. I didn't want a boy
Though of course by the time I lost him I did (we found out at 20 weeks).

xx Bec.

Yep, it happens to alot of people. My mum was the same, but she didn't want a girl. In the end she had a boy, but he was still born at 40 weeks. She always says she felt like she was being punished for being selfish, and God gave her her boy, but gave him to her forever-sleeping to teach her a lesson about being greatful for what we're given.

And I was the same as you. My freak out lasted the day (if that) and after that I knew I wanted him. All I'd imagine was how lovely it would be to dress him up in little clothes, and smell that nice baby smell and snuggle up together in our bed on weekends and coo over him. So I guess I have learnt a lesson too, really. My experiences with Jayvan have made me a much wiser and compationate person than what I was before, and although I NEVER want to have to go through it all again, I'm a better person for it.

But anyway, enough rambling from me! I'm off to dinner tonight to sort out our wedding guest list with my folks and PIL. Wish me luck. The last I heard mum had bumped the list up to 120 people.

Love xx

[mummabec]

Teagz, you are brave, letting your parents and PIL assist! Generous too but yes, good luck!!

I'm not sure if I'm wiser or more compassionate. I hope I am or will be but I worry this will change me for the worse.

xx Bec.

[helle]

Teagz, you are brave, letting your parents and PIL assist! Generous too but yes, good luck!!

I'm not sure if I'm wiser or more compassionate. I hope I am or will be but I worry this will change me for the worse.

xx Bec.

I'm their only daughter and DF is their only son, and they have made it very clear that they are using the occassion to shamelessly "show us off" seeing as they will both only get the chance once wedding wise (hopefully haha!). It's rather embarassing, though.

You will be, loving an angel baby is the most unconditional love in the world. You're a gorgeous and very special mummy for having Luca in your life, even when his life was much to short. x

[mummabec]

loving an angel baby is the most unconditional love in the world. x

What a lovely thought. Thanks!

xx Bec.

[Miss.B]

Hey girlies,

So much happening ATM!! Today I found out that my very good friend's Pop had another stroke (he had one a week ago) but this time it's beyond help and they're taking him off all meds and also his insulin which will send him into a coma. Such devastating news
Then another friend called to say her mum has only a few days left to live, a couple of weeks tops, she has cancer. I thought please, let there be some good news!!
Then........ a friend I work with, who has been off for almost 3 months now on long service leave, rang today to say she's preggers!!! It just made my day. She did her first fresh IVF cycle 3 months ago, and got pg on her firts try. She is my age and had lots of issues with endo and a m/c last year, so I was just so happy for her.
What a day!!!

Dee, wishing you the stickiest bubbie in the world tomorrow, I have everything crossed for you my love

Megan, I hope AF stayed away, but if she didn't, don't beat yourself up about it honey. Like I've always said, there is always next month, and I know you don't want to hear it, but believe me sweetie, your turn WILL come and then we'll be cheering you on from here to the moon because we care so much about you

Diana, thanks sweetie! So good to hear your results are great, I knew they would be! I will keep my fingers and everything else crossed for you for next Friday hunni

Nae, I hope your app. went well today sweetie. I will be thinking of you on Nikita's birthday hun, big hugs

Bec There will be lots of reminders of our little angels. They should be here with us
wishing you lots of sticky vibes in this cycle, get busy hun !!!

Teagz, hang in there sweets, I know all will be well with your next scan. I know it's hard not to be anxious! Way to go with the bigger vehicle!!! You'll have to fill it now with lots of kiddies!!

Hi Jo, good to hear from you hun, I hope the boobie monster is keeping you busy!!

Hi to everyone else, the weekend is almost here, hooray!

Love B xxx