Trying to Conceive after Late Loss/Recurrent Miscarriage/Stillbirth ~ March 09

[helle]

Yeah, I hear you there. I didn't want a boy
Though of course by the time I lost him I did (we found out at 20 weeks).

xx Bec.

Yep, it happens to alot of people. My mum was the same, but she didn't want a girl. In the end she had a boy, but he was still born at 40 weeks. She always says she felt like she was being punished for being selfish, and God gave her her boy, but gave him to her forever-sleeping to teach her a lesson about being greatful for what we're given.

And I was the same as you. My freak out lasted the day (if that) and after that I knew I wanted him. All I'd imagine was how lovely it would be to dress him up in little clothes, and smell that nice baby smell and snuggle up together in our bed on weekends and coo over him. So I guess I have learnt a lesson too, really. My experiences with Jayvan have made me a much wiser and compationate person than what I was before, and although I NEVER want to have to go through it all again, I'm a better person for it.

But anyway, enough rambling from me! I'm off to dinner tonight to sort out our wedding guest list with my folks and PIL. Wish me luck. The last I heard mum had bumped the list up to 120 people.

Love xx

[mummabec]

Teagz, you are brave, letting your parents and PIL assist! Generous too but yes, good luck!!

I'm not sure if I'm wiser or more compassionate. I hope I am or will be but I worry this will change me for the worse.

xx Bec.

[helle]

Teagz, you are brave, letting your parents and PIL assist! Generous too but yes, good luck!!

I'm not sure if I'm wiser or more compassionate. I hope I am or will be but I worry this will change me for the worse.

xx Bec.

I'm their only daughter and DF is their only son, and they have made it very clear that they are using the occassion to shamelessly "show us off" seeing as they will both only get the chance once wedding wise (hopefully haha!). It's rather embarassing, though.

You will be, loving an angel baby is the most unconditional love in the world. You're a gorgeous and very special mummy for having Luca in your life, even when his life was much to short. x

[mummabec]

loving an angel baby is the most unconditional love in the world. x

What a lovely thought. Thanks!

xx Bec.

[Miss.B]

Hey girlies,

So much happening ATM!! Today I found out that my very good friend's Pop had another stroke (he had one a week ago) but this time it's beyond help and they're taking him off all meds and also his insulin which will send him into a coma. Such devastating news
Then another friend called to say her mum has only a few days left to live, a couple of weeks tops, she has cancer. I thought please, let there be some good news!!
Then........ a friend I work with, who has been off for almost 3 months now on long service leave, rang today to say she's preggers!!! It just made my day. She did her first fresh IVF cycle 3 months ago, and got pg on her firts try. She is my age and had lots of issues with endo and a m/c last year, so I was just so happy for her.
What a day!!!

Dee, wishing you the stickiest bubbie in the world tomorrow, I have everything crossed for you my love

Megan, I hope AF stayed away, but if she didn't, don't beat yourself up about it honey. Like I've always said, there is always next month, and I know you don't want to hear it, but believe me sweetie, your turn WILL come and then we'll be cheering you on from here to the moon because we care so much about you

Diana, thanks sweetie! So good to hear your results are great, I knew they would be! I will keep my fingers and everything else crossed for you for next Friday hunni

Nae, I hope your app. went well today sweetie. I will be thinking of you on Nikita's birthday hun, big hugs

Bec There will be lots of reminders of our little angels. They should be here with us
wishing you lots of sticky vibes in this cycle, get busy hun !!!

Teagz, hang in there sweets, I know all will be well with your next scan. I know it's hard not to be anxious! Way to go with the bigger vehicle!!! You'll have to fill it now with lots of kiddies!!

Hi Jo, good to hear from you hun, I hope the boobie monster is keeping you busy!!

Hi to everyone else, the weekend is almost here, hooray!

Love B xxx

[Berry1]

Hi Girls,

Well AF did show up today so not feeling so great . I didn't expect it to take this long. Thanks Beata for your kind words. Will do personals later.

Dee, all the best for tomorrow hun.

[dd0207]

Megan I am sorry that witch showed her ugly face this month hun, there is no sight uglier than she...

Dee I hope your transfer went well today and little one is a super super sticky one

Hello to everyone else - hope you are doing well and will be back over the weekend for more persies.

[mummabec]

Hi all,

That's too bad Megan

I'm worried about our chances this month before we've even begun. DH Steve came home last night complaining of pain in his upper body. He's been to the doctor's today and had a chest x ray. No results until monday. Anyway if he's in pain I can't see him agreeing to sex today or tomorrow then our first month TTC will be gone

I'm not happy at all. Sometimes I wonder if I'm only meant to be the mum of one living child. Luca took almost a year to conceive, then we lost him at 35 weeks, and now I have a luteal phase defect and an out of action husband!

xx Bec.