hey guys!
i had a surprise phone call from the hospital today. Amanda who i have mentioned previously as our wonderwoman at the hosptial (she is head of the loss and miscarriage unit) left a message on my phone while i was working to say she was thinking of us in this pregnancy (not sure how she found out, has obviously come across our admission somehow) and was wondering how we had been since we lost Jack and looked forward to seeing us down there when we have our ultrasounds etc. She said she was there any time we needed to talk to someone in this pregnancy and hoped to see us in a few months time. It was a really nice thing to do and when i told mum she said she has almost gone out of her way and job requirements to keep the folllow up going. Its a comfort to know we can lean on her if we need to.
katie - TMi shared -don't even mention constipation to me, i am sure i am the queen of it! And my belly has'nt become rounded as much as i thought -its just my poor bloated belly! ha! But like you, i take it as a sign that things are going as they should, despite my discomfort! I am excited to find out what you are having! I found out with josh and emily and would have at the 20 week with Jack. This preg i am thinking i may do the opposite and wait, but it is early yet and my impatient mind will change i am sure. i felt i could really bond with my baby more when i knew the sex as it it made it so much more personal for me, but thats just my thinking. You do what you want to do and don't let anyone tell you otherwise! (cos trust me, you'll have your negative people!) I so hope you win that massage -fab, fab, fab idea!!!!
jen - i know what you mean by wanting to wait for testing. i got told by my physic i was pregnant and at that stage was a few days late but had'nt wanted to test yet.(we like to drive ourselves crazy by dragging it out!) This 12 week scan will be my 2nd one this preg as i had an 8 week one. I am already feeling very emotional about it so we will see how it all goes. Sunday night will be very sleepless and they had better be running on time!!!!!
hammi - day by day -just remember! ok?!? And we are here always, so take care!
barbara - hope you are well and baby evie is doing even better!!!
tm - still think about you!
take care everyone!
x jo
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I think i freaked the girl out (she prob would have been the same age as me) as when she asked me to hop up on the bench thing i burst into hysterical tears and she was left wondering what she had said wrong. Thankfully DH was there and did the quick explanation for me and she raced off to get a box of tissues. So as for getting weekly scans Katie, i really don't know how you do it! i was so stressed the whole time throughout this one againand even asking her not to turn the screen on until she saw a heartbeat, which she generously did. Then she made a point of picking out everything for us so we saw our babys body parts etc and that helped. I really think it helped Dan being there also as i think this baby became "real" for him. In previous pregnancies our babies have been real when he has seen my belly grow or felt movement. Then i asked to book in the 17 week scan as that will be the one purely to ease my stress and the receptionist went and got the sonographer as obviously the next appointment is normally the 19-20 week scan. So by then i'm in tears again and the sonographer asked if it was a viablity one (THAT WORD AGAIN!!!! hate it!!) and i said yes. ARGH!!! So until about an hour agao i have just felt on edge! My stress levels were so high even though i have nothing to stress over as i have a happily moving bubs! deep breath!....
I'm so very sorry to hear of your losses. 
I had 3 m/c in a row after I had my oldest son, but went on to have my younger son with no problems. Had a 4th m/c in Mar., and it doesn't get any easier. I'm praying AF comes quickly for you, so you can heal and begin your TTC journey again. Do you take a thyroid replacement? I had an overactive thyroid back in '92 when I was in high school, and had to have radiation. I have to take Synthroid everyday. It's strange because when I was pg. with my oldest son, my body started producing the hormone again, and I had to be taken off the thyroid pill. Then with my younger son, it stayed the same the whole time, and I never had to adjust the dosage. I'm glad you're getting tests tests done so that you can hopefully get some long-awaited answers. Good luck!
How sweet of the lab tech to point out all the baby's body parts! Now breathe, relax, and enjoy! Now to get that ticker done... 
sessions! If I get a BFP this month, I won't know what it was that helped, but I'm willing to try anything! Gotta go pick up the kids from school. Talk to you all soon, hope you all have a great day! 
that all is well with you!
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