Lan -- now I'm all excited and nervous for the weekend! I really hope AF stays away and that we get a long-awaited and well-deserved BFP in here. It's been a while!

So is Jo (relatively) ok? It's nice to hear she's still among the living! Did you tell her we were all asking after her?

Beata -- my SIL had 4 miscarriages in a row because of fibroids. I do not believe she had one big one like you have, but rather lots and lots of them. Every one of her miscarriages was in week 12. But after she changed doctors and they gave her a good work-up, removed the fibroids and put her on aspirin to keep them from growing back, she had her little girl that is 3 years old now. So I have no reason to expect anything less for you!

Sue -- figures that your placenta would be in the front so that you don't get as many kicks as you'd like! But it's nice with a great scan -- I haven't had one for 7 weeks now I just realized, so I'm hoping I get one when I next see the high risk OB in week 30.

Theresa -- I know what you mean about never having experienced this kind of turmoil. I know you feel like you're not coping well, but I don't believe you're coping any less heroically than a person in your situation can be expected to. I have my "light at the end of the tunnel" coming in April, but I'm starting to cry more and more every day, sometimes sinking back into that same black pit that I thought I'd crawled my way out of. It's not fun to feel "broken," but I really think that you're not handling it any worse than you should. I know it's maybe both comforting and depressing to hear me say that your despair is normal and might last a while... but the important thing is that you don't feel like a failure for not being chipper and happy.

Paula -- now you're 3 days pregnant!

Rozzie -- I'm sort of waiting for the third trimester to hit like a ton of bricks. I've been having lots of tiny little issues, but no major ones, except for this constant bull**** with my sinuses. I have a bit of hip pain, a bit of shortness of breath when I go up the stairs, etc... tiny, almost unnoticeable quibbles that merely serve to remind me that Kebab is in there. My belly certainly doesn't remind me, as it still hasn't gotten big enough to make a noticeable difference! I'm sort of like "What, I used to weigh 115 kg, and this is all you've got? Bring it on!"

I've been going to a chiropractor for the hip pain and it's really gotten a lot better -- but typical! I'm in for some major hurt later tonight, as I fell on the stairs this morning when I got up to let the cats out! I bounced down 3 or 4 of them on my butt, and DH came SPEEDING from the bedroom. He said "I was just lying in bed thinking that I should probably be letting the cats out because you might be tired and clumsy and fall down on your stomach and something will happen to Kebab, and right then I heard you fall!" So I'm banned from cat duty from now on! But everything seems good -- it's been 5 hours and nothing hurts, nothing is bleeding or leaking, and Kebab is kicking away... sheesh!

DH and I are in an interesting situation before New Year's... our closest friends seem to be splitting up after 8+ years together, and the female half of the couple seems to have been in the hospital after a suicide attempt. So we're quite full up trying to figure out our best course of action in order to be supportive and fair but not pushy or too self-sacrificing. I know I can't fix her, but I hope that I can offer her a hand to hold or a person to sit next to and drink coffee, which is what I would have wished for my friends to do after losing Beiron but I didn't really get much of.