Hi Noni, welcome to our wonderful group of mums, but so very sad you have to be here. What did you name your little boy? You will find heaps of support and understanding from these ladies that have been through such devastating losses, it is hard for people on the 'outside' to understand what you and DH have gone and will continue to go through. I hope your next meeting can shed some light on things for you, and trust me the nervousness doesn't go away, worse luck, but you will get to hold your little earth baby and their big brother will be smiling down at you all.