M2B - Teagz -

DH and I have Nikita's box out on display but its strategically placed in our living room we have a bit of a nook so have it there with a tea light candle holder next to it and a picture of her sitting on top. Its not so evident what the box is unless you go over to it and see her name engraved on the plate on top.

You may one day want to bring the box out and have it there with you. DH and I feel that by having Nikita in the room we spend the most time in, its like she is with us all the time.

I know it sounds stupid .

In relation to the due date, I found the lead up was worse than the actual date though the date was still hard I just had to keep assuring myself that Nikita came when she was meant too, her life had purpose and when that purpose was met she left. She kept DH and I together at a time when I was getting ready to leave him. I found other dates like Christmas very difficult and who knows how things will pan out when her 1st birthday and Angelversery come round.

Anyway, try not to look ahead about the what if's take one day at a time and just accept everything that comes with it.

BTW - I got my nappies today I have had them on layby for ages and they finally came they are soooo cute I love the blue, pink and yellow ones. its the bumgenius 3.0 version I have wanted them for ages since I was very first pregnant in 2007.
Now all I need is a baby tofill those nappies

Love to all
Nae x