thanks teagzz and hgirs. i feel so muc better though now. but yesterday i had a bit f a rough day cos he would have been 26 weeks old and i remember early on thinking that it would be such a nice time by now.sigh.but it's okay. we had him cremated and brought him home and they did lovely pictures for us i get to see him whenever.his name is Tosin.as you both know you never forget. hgirs congrats on your little Bub i'm so happy for you ! and teaggz, good luck to us
M2B - welcome to the group - its an unfortunate thing to find yourself in here but as already stated you will find lots of great ladies and men who have all been through the devastation of a loss. All who will be more than happy to become that shoulder to cry on or ear to chew when you need it. I am glad you feel the strength to begin your TTC journey so quickly and I hope that your stay here is a very short one and that you never need to return to this thread further down the track. Sorry that sounds aweful but there are always very sad reasons for one to be in here
Teagz I love your avatar, I so wanted an angel put in mine.
Dee here is to a long happy and healthy 9 months.
Beata love your new avatar too looks so lovely. Enjoy your holiday. x x
Noni, don't worry I'm still counting down my pregnancy too, I tried to stop but you can't really help it. I would have been 29 weeks this coming friday. I'm actually looking forward to when Jayvan's due date passes because the fantasy will be over, but I'm dreading it at the same time! I love your little bubs name as well. Are you going to do anything with his ashes? We bought Jayvan's home as well, they're sitting on Df's bedside table at the moment because he stole him off me : )
NaeNae, Thanks! I love my little Jayvan Angel too ^^; He looks cheeky, just like his dad!
thanks for your words nae nae..i love your name! teagz i know what you mean about counting down. i'm not really i gess but i just knew yesterday was coming. i was really down and dh gave me the space to be. as for the due date/week i don't know how it'll be.today's rainy and cloudy in perth and i remember fantasizing about being home with my boy in the wintermonths etc...we bought a solid oak box for his ashes, it's pretty biggish and we're gonna put him there together with his birth and death certificates, they came last week and that was hard too and his other little bits and pieces and put it away for when we want to look through it.we're not gonna have them out in the open though. it's too private for us.
your boy's name is lovely he he he that your df stole him from you ! how sweet.
Bah! So, I've just gone to the loo and I'm pretty sure AF has just started... what... WHAT! It's only CD17?!?! Boy, this is depressing Well, at least it hasn't ruined my birthday.
Noni, yeah we haven't left stuff for Jayvan out either. I would love to but I don't think that people would understand, but at the same time I don't like the idea of having him stuff away in a box up in the top cupboard. We have a puter box for his ashes that has his name engraved on it his little blanket is in there, and we have his hand and footprints framed and hanging above our bed.
DH and I have Nikita's box out on display but its strategically placed in our living room we have a bit of a nook so have it there with a tea light candle holder next to it and a picture of her sitting on top. Its not so evident what the box is unless you go over to it and see her name engraved on the plate on top.
You may one day want to bring the box out and have it there with you. DH and I feel that by having Nikita in the room we spend the most time in, its like she is with us all the time.
I know it sounds stupid .
In relation to the due date, I found the lead up was worse than the actual date though the date was still hard I just had to keep assuring myself that Nikita came when she was meant too, her life had purpose and when that purpose was met she left. She kept DH and I together at a time when I was getting ready to leave him. I found other dates like Christmas very difficult and who knows how things will pan out when her 1st birthday and Angelversery come round.
Anyway, try not to look ahead about the what if's take one day at a time and just accept everything that comes with it.
BTW - I got my nappies today I have had them on layby for ages and they finally came they are soooo cute I love the blue, pink and yellow ones. its the bumgenius 3.0 version I have wanted them for ages since I was very first pregnant in 2007.
Now all I need is a baby tofill those nappies
Teagz - Sorry about AF. Still hoping it's a false alarm.
M2B - Welcome. So sorry for your loss. We lost Zachary at 35 weeks 5 days. It has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. We have Zachary's ashes at home in our bedroom in a tiny pewter box but his hand & footprint and a large photo are in our living room where we can see him every day. We also have a butterfly tealight candle holder which we light every month on the 24th (his birth date). There was no reason for Zachary's death either - we were told he was perfect. It has been hard to deal with but we have accepted it now and are happy there was nothing wrong with our angel. I hope you find comfort here, the ladies are so wonderful and supportive. Good luck with your TTC journey.
Naenae - You will fill those nappies with a happy, healthy baby!!!
Dee81 - Keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you. xxxx
Beata - Thinking of you xxxx
hi to everyone else. hope you get your BFP's soon.
AFM - Yesterday was a hard day as Zachary would have been 7 months old. I can't believe it has been 7 months!!! Having our nuchal scan on 12 March - feel like it is ages away lol
Keep well everyone and good luck. Sending tons of baby dust and sticky vibes your way!!
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i'm so happy for you ! and teaggz, good luck to us
I love your avatar, I so wanted an angel put in mine.
here is to a long happy and healthy 9 months.
Well, at least it hasn't ruined my birthday.
I have had them on layby for ages and they finally came they are soooo cute I love the blue, pink and yellow ones. its the bumgenius 3.0 version I have wanted them for ages since I was very first pregnant in 2007.
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