I thought it was about time that I introduced myself, I have been 'lurking' for a few weeks. I lost my little girl Jasmine on the 29th October (4-weeks ago), I was 19 weeks. Basically my husband & I found out at 12-weeks that something wasn't right due to a high NT result. We eventually found out (via a CVS) that she had moscasism, which means there was 'extra' DNA in her cells (70%), this was confirmed by an amnio at 16-weeks. The docs also detected a major heart problem, which was monitored and then confirmed by a cardiologist that there was only one valve in her heart (should be 2). By then there were other signs, an obstructed bowel, fluid increasing around the brain and the heart. She was also about 2-weeks behind in size. They couldn't say that these physcial signs were related to the DNA issue, but it was becoming likely. After 7-weeks of tests & checks to confirm everything I was given two choices, continue the pregnancy knowing that she would die at birth or shortly after (or I could miscarry) or terminate the pregnancy. As you can imagine, this was an awful decision. We didn't want to risk her suffering at birth and felt it was the kindest of the two terrible options to let her go while she was underdeveloped.
It has been hard knowing that I 'played a role' in her passing. I think it must be one of the cruelest things in life that a mother has to decide to do, she was very much loved & wanted.
Jasmine will never be replaced, but DH & I are thinking of TTC in the new year as we dearly want to start a family.
There's my story. I know it is different to how most of you lost your precious babies, I hope it's ok for me to join your thread and share the journey.
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