Well, my DS is having his first day at daycare! It was very strange leaving him with strangers, we had a couple of play dates there beforehand, but it is still weird! I was a bit emotional as I walked away, he on the other hand couldn't care less, he was having a great time! So here I am supposed to be working, and talking to you guys!
AF showed her very ugly face this morning, so I am back in for next month, every pregnancy I have had, has always been the 3rd month, so fingers crossed for this one being the 3rd month!
Sue, Lan was right she is your TTC buddy for Oct, and I hope she is right about me!
Lan - You have waited such a long time for this moment, I can understand your apprehension, but when you walk out tomorrow afterward hopefully things will be a lot clearer for you. You are the best mother Hamish could have, it isn't anything you did, but I do know those feelings. Good luck tomorrow, I hope you get some answers, just remember that a lot of the time, there aren't any.
Hi to all, have to get back to work!
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Jo: I will be thinking of you tomorrow, Madison will be in my prayers.
Hammi: I hope you get some answers from your appointment. Please don't blame yourself. I know that is our first instinct as mother's but some things are out of our control. You just have to trust that Hamish only needed to be with you for a short time and that now he is out there fulfilling his soul's purpose and is all the better equipped to do that because of the love and nurturing you gave him when you were together and still give him now that you are apart.
Katie: good luck for the OB, it must be so delightful to feel those reassuring little kicks. You are an inspiration to all of us.
Hgirs: I can emphathise with your emotional day care experience. I used to cry every day when I dropped DS off. I would hold it together until I got to the car and then break down in a blubbering mess. It really is so good for them though. My DS has learnt so many things that he just wouldn't have been exposed to at home. I also think my relationship with him is that much stronger because we have some time apart and I get to do something for me, which makes me happier and better able to focus on him when we are at home together. Persevere with it, especially if your son is ok. You will find it easier with time.
Well my update is that I finally got my test results back. It seems like forever although not as long as Hammi has had to wait. We chose not to have an autopsy done. I'm not sure why, our OB didn't think it was necessary and everything was such a blur at the time we just went along with his recommendation. I did have a heap of blood tests though and we had the placenta etc sent for testing.
It turns out that the cord was extremely wound up, so much so that the OB has never seen anything like it in all his years of practice. He can't say if it was the cause but he thinks it is 'significant'. My blood also showed a high level of antibodies for parvo virus (the human one not dog one!) so they sent it back for more tests to see if I had the virus. The next lot of tests couldn't confirm or rule it out. Only a small percentage of women get parvo virus during pregnancy and of them only about 5% will result in still birth. Again he couldn't say if this was the cause but said it could well have been.
The thing that really upsets me is that adults generally contract it from day care centres. Adults have no symptoms and once you've had it you're immuned but kids apparently get cheeks which look like they have been slapped and are a bit fluey. When I was PG and on holidays I decided it would be nice for DS if I went and spent a day at the centre with him to help out. He absolutely loved it but now I am wondering if that is when I could have contracted the virus. I will never know but it upsets me that I may have lost Charlie from something which could have been prevented. I'm not blaming myself but just the fact it could have been avoided is quite disturbing.
The good news is that either of those possible causes are not likely to reoccur so OB is confident that any future pregnancies will be successful. Although he said that after my first MC and then we lost Charlie so I am well aware there are no guarantees.
OB said next time I should be super freaky about hygiene such as washing hands before cleaning teeth or blowing nose etc and basically after touching anything. Especially after going to day care. Thought that might be a useful tip for all of us who are TTC or already PG, you can never be too careful I guess.
Hi all. I am back and all good news. I asked for a scan and whilst it was hard to see much because the baby is now much larger, we saw the heartbeat. She is still head down so hopefully she will stay that way. I am measuring correct for dates and my ob is happy with everything...so I am happy too. I told him about my dream and he said that it is common in the last phase of pregnancy to have dreams etc, and because I have a history of night terrors he said that it is possible they will increase...lovely. I am hoping that won't be the case.
So that is my good news for the day. I will be back later for personals.
Jo - I so feel for you and how you are feeling. I wish I could take it all away.... I will be thinking of you on Friday and just remember, we are all here for you.
Paula, I am so glad you don't blame yourself and I can understand trying to search for answers.... Thank you so much for the advice, I will be so careful when I get pregnant next. I really don't care what others think of how careful I am, because until they walk in our shoes, they will never know....
Hi Helen - I hope Lan is so right...... if not you will be joining us the month after.
Katiegirl - Goodluck at your OB appointment today. You must catch us up with all the good news when you get back. I think we need some...
Lan I will be thinking of you tomorrow when you get your results. I hope it provides you with all you need .
Tildy hope all is well and you are feeling better... he he he
Jo - I will be thinking of you tomorrow, saying your goodbye to Madison, but she will never be gone from your heart, take comfort in that sometime when you can.
Lan - Good luck tomorrow I hope you get some answers, but even if you don't that is not necessarily a bad thing either.
Tildy - I hope your follow up goes well tomorrow
Mrs Robbo - I am glad your OB seems confident your troubles won't re-occur, it does sound like that.
Katie - Great news today!
Ds seemed to love daycare today! and I must admit I did get a fair bit of work done!
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Hi all - Madison Rose will be farewelled today at 10am by Jo and her family.
Jo - I will be lighting my candle and saying a prayer for Madison, Jack and all your family. Please know that whilst I am not there with you, I am thinking of you and praying that you may find peace and comfort over the coming weeks and months. Farewell Madison, know that you will live on in the hearts of all who remember you.
. Good luck tomorrow, I hope you get some answers, just remember that a lot of the time, there aren't any.
I will be thinking of you tomorrow, saying your goodbye to Madison, but she will never be gone from your heart, take comfort in that sometime when you can.
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