Trying to Conceive after Stillbirth/Recurrent Miscarriage/Late Loss

[helle]

OMG! This is how hopelessly addicted I am to this site. Ive been trying ALL DAY and it's been saying the sites down... When it actually ended up working I literally cried out with relief I bet you boots now that I write my speel the site will crash again. Ugh! But anyway...
I hate AF. She's a constant reminder of a horrible thing and I feel completely alone and helpless through it at the moment because DF is up to that "accepting and moving on" stage of grieving and being all excited about being able to try again shortly, and I'm not, I'm still bawling like I child who's had their security blanket taken away, sobbing for wanting my baby back and how unfair it is that he was taken away in the first place.

The last couple of days I've become completely fascinated with DF sisters, one has three children (she is 23), the other has one (she is 19). It blows my mind that they can just have babies. They just have them. Their pregnancy's are uneventful, they are calm pregnant woman, and at the end they produce gorgeous, perfect little babies that they get to take home and dote over. Their bodies do exactly what they're meant to do, they breast feed perfectly, everything. It fascinates the absolute bajeezez out of me that they can do it first shot, and I couldn't. I feel like a horrible Mum already. I can't even put into words how much of a wow factor it's having on me at the moment.. My head is almost about to pop over it^^;

Persies!

Theresa! Why haven't we had anymore gushing from you? Are you feeling sick yet? You're going to be on a high for aaages, I don't think you'll believe it til you start showing. Ooh you'll have to show us belly photos! I can't wait! XD

dd, sorry you're having a bit of a hard time with your mental cycle still. You're in a fairly monitored sort of environment now so just stay confident that they know what they're doing and they'll sort everything out for you and you'll be screaming a BFP soon!

hgirs, better to be safe than sorry! I think I would have done exactly the same thing, except when they said not to hurry because they were busy I would have told them where to stick it, and that I was coming in NOW. Hope you had fun with the Wiggles and Bob How cute.

beata, Sounds like that bug thing is going around australia atm. DF came home yesterday from work with it and has been told strictly no sharing!!

Aah, well I feel calmer now. Thank goodness it's Thursday, bring on the weekend!

xx